07/12/22, 17:19

sometimes i wish i had the spirit and body of a boy, while remaining a girl. i love long hair, like i love sparkly makeup and sharp eyeliner and dressing up, but i think i wouldve liked myself better in a boys body. skinny arms a thighs, a flat chest, skinny all around. i was cursed as a girl, but i am doing my best. soon, i will move to the west coast. until recently, i could never picture myself past my current age. now, i can see myself growing old. i can see myself holding someone close, walking with a kid down the beach, splashing in the ocean, growing up. it feels weird that one day my hair will grow gray, my wrinkles will show, but i dont think im afraid of it anymore.