05/28/22, 23:19

what do you do when you simply feel like a waste of a person? i never do anything fun with my life. i'm a part of several friend groups, but i have a solid place in none, so when one group goes out at night or parties or gets together, i'm often stuck home alone. and it is my fault, because i never really got close to people. i didn't even have anyone sign my yearbook, because i thought there was nothing from this section of my life even really worth remembering for me. right now, all i want is to smoke a cigarette on my roof, but i can't do that, and i'm not sure what else to do. i'm tired of sitting at home, and overall, tired of the way i have acted so disconnected from life. i want to change it, and i'll try, i'll try really hard when i move, but right now, all i seem to be able to do is sleep. so, for now, i'll let my lungs fill, let my eyes water, and let my heart beat with pity.