sometimes i wonder waht happened to me i was super fucken emo for a while then felt a lot better then summer came and so mcuh but so little shit happened like i started grinding val hella hella and then ended up meeting this guy with a nice voice and i have a voice fetish so i was like omg slayyyyyyyyyy nd got his disc and started talking nd everything and we talked for a whileeee and we played v... » Continue Reading
4/20/22 humbled so hard i decided not to obsess over c anymore bc i literally just realized that im totally romanticizing this version of him that doesn't really exist and ive literally been going crazy thinking its ok to be obsessed w him when hes a real human being with a life wtf ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm working towards it but whatever im trying day was mid napped » Continue Reading
4/19/22 i looked pretty today got so many compliments lol club meeting was absolute trash everyone there was so unfunny and weird im glad i left early and talked a little bit more to my other friend i dont care abt anything anymore i dont care about my looks or my grades or anything i feel so detached from life rn all my classes today were so fuckin boring nothing else really happened it really wa... » Continue Reading
4/18/22 a reaaallly good day at first classes were super mid and then i went and told some of my friends about why im obsessed with c and they literally were being so annoying and not taking me seriously even thoug i was literally talking about my trauma ??? got rlly mad about it and talked to a friend and we ended up hanging out and she is so amazing and i love her » Continue Reading
4/17/22 i feel so emotional today for some reason. like idk why but for some reason life has just felt so fast and i feel like i havent been able to actually experience anything truly. like in terms of school, band, and just life in general i dont remember how i feel or anything and i feel like ive just accepted that some parts of life are meaningless almost? like ive accepted the fact that as of ... » Continue Reading