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idk i couldnt detatch from the friendgroup bc theyre really all i have and love but for some reason i feel left out with the ones who are my classmates idk theres 4 of them in a corner of the room (by alphabetical order, they have close last names) and i have a last name in the "B" so im at front and i do know ppl there just not well enough to be someone paired with i feel like such a floater frie... » Continue Reading
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So recently, I started feeling that my current friend group is not it right now. Like, I constantly feel excluded (not on purpose) and lowkey they're starting to get toxic, getting involved with other people's drama. I love them, but they're not exactly the crowd that I want during my formative years yk??? Like I'd lean on them for support and let them lean on me back when they need it, but someth... » Continue Reading
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i dont think ill ever actually fucking have a healthy relationship, if i even have one at all. every example of a couple in my family barely has love in it my grandparents were arranged and are abusive to each other, they only married under the pressure of my great aunt uncle 1 - married out of spite for the girl who kept chasing him, he suffered a stroke recently and his wife wants to abandon hi... » Continue Reading
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hi so like I MADE IT TO DAY 2?????? im actually so shocked bc i was NOT expecting to make it in the final 15 of 50 applicants (mixed) like FUCKKK>??!?! theres no wy my sparring was that good, i only had one round and i was a bitch bodied and anyways skipping that i just went swimming with my friends today, fun as hell lol became bigbacks there w samyang and hotdogs lol (we had like 3 each) » Continue Reading
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so tomorrow im gonna try out for the taekwondo team again. ive already gone through two trainings in preparation buttttttt i dont really expect anything tbh the tryout is a free training in itself also my stamina sucks ass and thats the main thing we need for the tryout hahahah im so screwed i dont wanna embarass myself im applying for sparring varsity but all my achievements are all under form pe... » Continue Reading
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well my grades just got released yesterday, i didn't make it tohighest honors with an average of 97.something something, i js remember its over 60 97.60(+) and uh i have tryouts for the varsity team next week! though i dont really expect to make it, its more for the free trainings. my staminas at an all-time low but i guess thats what i have to fix. anyways ive been slowly getting out of my vacat... » Continue Reading
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i mean asides from death, the one thing im really scared about is the people in my life, the ones i wanna stick to forever will become just a memory, not like the "oh ill keep her in my memory" shit after they die more like theyre alive, we just encountered a forkroad and our paths were separate now. the feeling that theyre still here, but i physically cannot spend time with them, or talk to them,... » Continue Reading
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i've been putting on "mundo" on repeat i dont know why, its just so nostalgic. i think i first heard it when i was like 8/9? i don't know when exactly, but i knew my mom always put this song on while she was working late nights (pre-pandemic) theres something about the song that evokes something in me i sound so edgy wtf but seriously, theres like a longing for something i dont know. maybe its th... » Continue Reading
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grade 9 is officially over its really weird, like i vividly remember every single event happening as if it was hours ago. theres no way I just made it through an entire school year again, makes me wonder if time will pass this quick (or quicker) when im older i also vivily remember writing a blog about the day before my competition around last april? yeah so guess what, im still performing the sam... » Continue Reading
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so wow, grade 9 is ending. thats really weird, considering I'm still really hung up on grade 8 lol I've really learned a lot, and grown as a person, maybe in stomach to but stfu idc icl ts pmo sm fr fr fr fr sybau stfu I don't give a GAF so its really making me think that I've had this account since grade 7. I wonder what it'll be like to stumble across this profile when I'm older and have forgott... » Continue Reading
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i go into depressive tangents less frequently. i still kinda hate taekwondo but i think im developing a crush on my teammate so its fine negative x negative = positive » Continue Reading
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