Sometimes I forget that I have my whole life ahead of me And a lot of the time, most of the time, I catch myself living like I could die at any moment That is true But I’ve become so reckless in such a subdued way I haven’t even noticed I’m ruining myself I find myself on auto pilot a lot of the time I find myself with no clear intention or goal I wonder why things seemed so much more clear when ... » Continue Reading
i take things way too seriously maybe not things, per say, but rather relationships friendships love sex i take it so seriously and i'm so intense about it i've known this dude for two weeks and i'm planning my life with him in my mind but the thing is just a few hours ago i didn't even think he was my type i do want him but i also don't it's so clear that he's into me though and he might want som... » Continue Reading
I haven’t logged on here in a long time and I think that’s because I’ve been running out of recklessness and relentlessness to get the emotions to write But I’m on here because I think you might be reading this, if even a little bit of you still cares about me and what i feel towards you, you’re checking my blogs Maybe you’re hoping I’ll write this about you, and I’ve written a few letters that I ... » Continue Reading
when all you have are the fragments of the memories you didn’t know you had to leave behind things you never knew were gonna stop being renewed moments you didn’t think would end but do because the tip of the knife is as sharp as the words that go unspoken the seconds and years and gears that turn because you’re not here what i am left with is nothing but my beating heart the same one that i wishe... » Continue Reading
i love yous feel empty when i’m only someone you come to when i come to you first i hate to be negative but i think im just speaking truth here sometimes im a second thought the last resort that doesn’t mean im hated or anything, i know im loved but im not in any circle there’s a circle and im outside of it, trying to talk but they’re all talking amongst themselves i dont wanna be someone who alwa... » Continue Reading
one day all of this will end and no one will remember what it was there will be footage of it stored somewhere and people will be able to see it through a screen but no one will remember one day i’ll die and everything will end bury me in all the confetti i’ve gathered from all the memories i hold so close to me one day this will all end i’ll die and everyone will forget but there will be truth ... » Continue Reading
when i die bury me in a coffin of my own blood where my thoughts are spewing out in a way that doesn’t make sense to anybody but me the streets of a city i stand under the lights smoking a light that she bought for me she stands next to a man she’s been dreaming of i stand in leopard print tights nervous because i wish i was older desperately trying to hide and grow up » Continue Reading