all my songs are about drugs

i feel like it’s a pity invite
like everything i ask for is me begging for love
every halloween that goes by
reminds me that im alone 
that being a lonely girl will stick with me for longer than id like it to
every pity invite
every text i send to see if someone’s doing something
every invite that goes unsent because they simply don’t think of me
i’d like to say my hearts broken
but i don’t think the pieces can be shattered any further
how fine can sand get?
i feel the physical ache 
of not having friends
not ever