today was my big debut but the star didn't think so sore feet aching back but, pity our poor star, she's, had a stressful day each night i journal wishing your fucking star would burn out » Continue Reading
HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT ABOUT MY MOTHER THE WOMAN WHO BIRTHED I IN IN THE RIGHTEOUS IMAGE OF GOD woman who raised me tenderly preparing a gullible lamb for cutlet HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT ABPUT MY MOTHER HOW DARE YOU HOW DARE YOU!!!! YOU'D KISS HER FACE AND TAKE ONE HALF AND SPIT IN MY DIRECTION how could you say that about me has this all been for nothing? all the days of shying away and pretendi » Continue Reading
the church is on fire i am on fire, bli nd ed by fire flesh m e l t i n g like hot paint. your teeth pulling meat off a bone suffocating my face my eyes reflect in yours how could you rather kill me than preserve yourself » Continue Reading
i miss the days of sunflower seeds kvas and, excerpts of taras. the muddy roads after a seasonal shower - undisturbed ikons of Our Lady posted in the window and flowers blooming in the garden. you and i, we'd race down mezhova street past the 10th school and throw a few rocks at passing cars. we'd reach the steel plant and swim irresponsibly, only God knows what » Continue Reading
will i open my eyes again plastic ripping my veins meeting at 8:30 tomorrow a dead kitten in the road my parent's separation should i go to college an awkward conversation will i live past 30 how many eggs are in the fridge unattainable fantasies passive thoughts of suicide fleeting taste of kvas taras chornyy this month's water bill how much will a new side mirror cost will i ever » Continue Reading
adorned with internal scorn preaching purity in false pretext, draped in a holy curtain i see through i can see you i see what you are i see your rotten soul » Continue Reading
my body is MINE my body is MINE my body is MINE my body is MINE my body is MINE no matter how hard you try to take it will never connect will never wed with you i will kill myself and kill you » Continue Reading