father (poem)

HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT ABOUT MY MOTHER
THE WOMAN WHO BIRTHED I 
IN
IN THE RIGHTEOUS IMAGE OF GOD

woman who raised me tenderly
preparing a
gullible lamb for cutlet 

HOW COULD YOU SAY THAT ABPUT MY MOTHER
HOW DARE YOU HOW DARE YOU!!!!
YOU'D KISS HER FACE AND TAKE ONE HALF
AND SPIT IN MY DIRECTION

how could you say that about me
has this all been for nothing?
all the days of shying away and 
pretending to want to be there
has this all been for nothing?
each day of the past ten years?

I AM AN ANGRY CHILD
I AM AN UNLOVED CHILD

I AM YOUR UNLOVED CHILD
I AM YOUR ANGRY CHILD

WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME?????
WHAT DID I DO TO YOU, YOU INSULT TO CREATIVITY???
I DONT DESERVE YOUR SCORN

i'll grow up never fully sure if 
i've just become you

each time i lash out, all i hear is your voice and
it muzzles me quite quick