Why the fuck Do it have To listen To you Rant About Your new Fucking fling. And humour it Oh yeah I remember now! Because if I dont. You'll kick me out. And ill have Nowhere Left To. Go. » Continue Reading
God I exist. God I exist. God I exist. Evelyn, I exist. Evelyn, I exist I. Evelyn. Exist. Waow isnt that fucking ridiculous? Out of all the people I could have been, A scientist, a politician, a philanthropist, a tyrant. I. Evelyn. The self destructive little shit. Exist. Huh. Sad. » Continue Reading
Im no longer yours Youre no longer mine But my attachment to you is disgusting I wish I didnt hang onto your every word I wish I wasnt obsessed I wish I didnt care what you thought about me I wish I didnt want to tear my pieces apart Just to build them back in a shape youd prefer I wish you liked me But I dont even like you anymore Maybe I do. Maybe im lying. But how am I meant to know? You ... » Continue Reading
I wish I could have what you have. I wish I could be what you are. I wish I was desired like you. I wish that care, that someone puts into you. That compassion That desire to know. That desire to understand Thay desire to connect. I wish I could have that. But I also dont. I dont want to be happy I want to be hurt. I crave to be ruined. I need to be used. But im fucking sick. To » Continue Reading
I wish. I could HATE you. That would solve. Alot. If I could wake up tomorrow And not feel a shred of attachment If I could forget you In an instant. I would. But. I cant. And its not Even you anymore Its that lovely little pedestal You put yourself on in my eyes. Purposefully making yourself my everything. Youve admitted to being a bad person Ive accepted that youre shi » Continue Reading
I become conscious. My brain feels like mush. My thoughts collide and blur, Until that sweet sweet haze, My mindless oblivion, Decides to reclaim its throne. Atop my head A crown of thorns A severed head Detached from a body I am untouchable I am unbreakable For theres nothing left. I am. Divine. » Continue Reading
I used to hate mirrors When I was a kid Thinking it was unnatural To see what I did The face staring back Never felt like my own I figured it would change When I was considered grown. In a way it did I got used to the sight Of the creature it was, its suffering and blight. I tried to dress it up In suits and fancy clothes But these brief highs » Continue Reading
I love you more than ive ever loved. And I need you more than ive ever needed. And I want you more than ive ever wanted. And ive never been more terrified, Of my own shitty patterns and behaviours. Of my own apathy towards everything, » Continue Reading