Generally, I can be a very picky person. Maybe 50% of the foods I try I don't like. When I'm reading, it has to be perfectly suited to me or I give up and abandon it. If poetry doesn't stick just right with me I tend to despise it. But nothing clutches to the base of my spine more than the sentence "I am every age I have ever been." It isn't complex, and it is probably a very relatable feeling for... » Continue Reading
When my birthday came I had anticipated entirely the worst. When it didn't come, I felt like I was left hanging. Like when someone asks to be your friend and it doesn't come with a punchline this time. The highlights were: my cat crawling in bed with me in the early hours of the morning, warming me first inside, then out. Seeing my nana who was also having her birthday, I am greatful to be able to... » Continue Reading
10/9/2024 When the thing I want so badly to work is crumbling beneath me, sometimes all I can do is take a step back and let it go. Biting the hand you think feeds you can be difficult for anyone, but sometimes you find that hand was poisoning you all along. Meeting the person that listens, the person that looks and the person that waits can feel like an impossible task. Managing to line up a diff... » Continue Reading
8/9/24 I got neither, and a slap on the wrist for even thinking I deserve something so beyond me. The thought is laughable. There are few things worse than the feeling of someone you love being absent when you explicitly asked for them. Maybe it's the time of year, or maybe its the people I put my time into, but something has changed and people are staying away. It's hard. My friend and I had plan... » Continue Reading
The mix of cold nights and warm mornings always gives me dreams, It's how I know spring is coming. I had a dream you came to visit me. We toured my home town and spent time together like we never could. I remember asking you to stay before I woke up, like I knew it couldn't last. When I woke up, my chest was so empty I couldn't think, but I held on to the non-memory of you like it was the only thi... » Continue Reading