update: i got a new job, thank God bc i was strugglin but no lie. i cannot believe i am where i am and still standing. i have no insu again and isk if my licence suspened but whatever. my Niece is growing and my mother is .... but i am still strugglilng but yano us fucnctional alcohols lmao. i have 2 to live for..... what will i accomplish next for them ? everything happens for a reason » Continue Reading
Alot has happened sine October 2022. I am unfamiliar to myself and i have seen/ done more than the avarage, ive overcame more than the average. i realize i am on my own path now. Different than what my motnher thinks, different than what my brother thinks an far from from what my friends think. I am better, i will continue to get better. im not lost just confused as the world change. im not good... » Continue Reading
omfg i am a disaster. im drunk AGAIN, and the universe has tempted me... not blaming the universe or God bc i know its trials before tribnulations. its temptation before the blessings and boy, its not easy. i know i am not the first and i wont be the last, but i cant stop hating everything. whats goin to change. it has to be me now ... while im drinking my dads beer alresy fucked the fuck up ... ... » Continue Reading
i know i said all that good shit and i was putting my best foot foward but im ready for destruction right now... just one more time. nobody has to know... one more time off the deep end ... one more time living life like there is no tomorrow... one more time being reckless during this pandemic. ANYBODY can under stand that. Not to blame my problems on the world but why not. i cant stay sober, i ca... » Continue Reading
Lately i have been working on my WORST self. i am so glad i am done with that chapter in my life. Being a menace to society has gotten me nowhere spritually, physically and mentally. i am happy to say i am on the path to BIGGER & BETTER. i refuse to let my past dictate my future and im washing my hands clean. no more just because parties, no more substance abuse, and no more self pitty.my goal is... » Continue Reading