i dont really care though im pretty happy like this (?). but its just weird because me and all my close friends live in different countries now we dont talk that much anymore. so im just alone. thats not to say i dont have nice friends in college, but im kinda just masking all the time around everyone here in one way or another. i cant really be myself. i dont feel like a real human most days. but... » Continue Reading
this happens every so often where anything and everything stresses me out to the point i feel like i cant do anything...im so tired of this feeling. the only escape i have is when i sleep and ive been sleeping horribly the past two weeks :( this isnt helped by the large amount of things i need to do. at least ive been getting my chores out of the way. im proud of myself for that but at what cost ... » Continue Reading
juts finished the exam. it went really well!! i think ive got a full mark in the bag... hopefully... it was all about projectiles and newtons laws and forces but it felt so easy??? idk if i just studied well or if the professor just dumbed things down for us but regardless im feeling good. i really really hope i dont get punched with a bad score. idk if id be able to handle that. anyways happy ha... » Continue Reading
my exam is after tomorrow. idk why it just occurred to me today that i should probably start studying. i got my period. im tired. practicing takes so much time and energy but i really really dont want to fail this exam i already failed my first and idk how bad i did in the second but id be surprised if i passed that one too. physics is hard :( its my first semester so im not gonna be too hard on ... » Continue Reading
i skipped class for the first time yesterday and i still feel guilty. I SOUND LIKE SUCH A LOSER BUT I DONT CARE. i have so many friends and classmates that always skip i just dont understand them. my highschool was very strict about attendance so i literally never skipped anything then and i thought i might finally be able to do that here BUT NO. in my defense i was very exhausted. we had just fin... » Continue Reading
i havent posted here in a while!! i am now an 18 year old chemcial engineering freshman!! living in dorms is weird and getting close friends is hard...i have a bunch of ppl that ive met that are really nice but im not very close with any of them. theres two girls that i have started to become friends with in particular. so its really really nice to have them in my life rn. i miss my friends so mu... » Continue Reading
IM SO EXCITED!!! i cannot wait to be out of my teen years. ik im gonna miss them once im in my 20s and 30s but still. the one thing im scared about for being an adult is being held completely responsible for my actions...like i wont be able to use the "im just a teenager" excuse. its not like i used it much before but it was nice to have in there as a safety net of sorts 😠ive always been mature ... » Continue Reading
im very excited i havent gone to the beach in forever. i hope its not windy. its funny that ive lived in a city on the coast of a very beautiful gulf for 10 years and ive barely ever gone...better late than never ! » Continue Reading
im so happy. my report card was great. 3.9 gpa. i got my toefl scores back too! 110 out of 120!! as for the standardised tests i need for applications in my country....heh....lets not talk about those..... » Continue Reading
idk why im getting sad about it all of a sudden. i hated high school but the thing thats making me almost cry is the fact that ill probably never see a lot of my classmates ever again... we really grew up together and now we're all gonna go our separate ways and thats it. i feel like it just dawned on me that this is truly the end of an era. idk if im ready for university. idk whether to laugh or... » Continue Reading
i did an english proficincy test today and it went so freaking well. i wasnt expecting it to go bad or anything but i was nervous. anyways as i was waiting for my mom to pick me up i got a call from the admissions office of my top university and they were making sure that i had the things that i needed to complete my application and everything it was so relieving. now ive just gotta power through... » Continue Reading
i have finals and standardized tests all at the same time like i don't have more than one day in between some of these shits im gonna try not to break down but omg its so scary I WILL DO WELL!!!!! AND I WILL HAVE A BRIGHT FUTURE AND SUCCESSFUL CAREER!!!! » Continue Reading