love is destin and i never want to go back it’s an 8 hour drive and it was freezing it was dark blue and rainy and i was obsessed with someone that didn’t want me back that pattern would continue for years starved but convinced i was fat so sad but not in the surface level deeper than the sand beneath the ocean that was outside of my hotel room soul sad, truly deeply inside my soul i was lost i di... » Continue Reading
i find myself missing the convertible that was hanging on by a thread while i do my math homework i don’t get section 2 but i breezed through section 1 i feel so off, it’s every other week i wake up and think “somethings changed” like something in the universe shifted this sensation only happened recently, when i graduated high school life just isn’t like it used to be not in a bad way and i don’... » Continue Reading
something in me calmed down the second i heard him scream i cried and listened to the rain in a rental car i start college tomorrow and i guess im stressed out even though logically i have no reason to be but nothing ever is logical with me usually only emotion based but im okay with that i love feeling i live to feel » Continue Reading
i just finished watching requiem for a dream my heart fell to the floor and my stomach feels heavy im almost shattered i knew it would have been best for me to not watch that movie especially given my fragile state of mind and past experiences with eating disorders and drug abuse i guess i'd give up just about anything to feel something 4 people with dreams drugs got them and just like that their » Continue Reading
we broke up and i don’t care i mean that, ive thought about it a lot and i never got attached to him in the first place but every once in a while ill think about him taking his shirt off all the tattoos he had under there or how good he looked when his roommate knocked on his door and asked for a cigarette how tall he was and how insanely hot he was well, he still is but i don’t get that anymore,... » Continue Reading
i don’t mind getting my heart broken but i think it’s actually deeper than that i think i need to get hurt that pain afterwards i don’t know why i shouldn’t crave heart break i should probably try to change my ways ill be stuck in my old ways forever or so i hope until one day the logical side of my brain decides to heal » Continue Reading
i went to evansville and as much as i liked the trip i miss orlando i love my hometown i love the tourists i love the traffic i love the insane rent prices i love disney all these things i hated before, i love now that they’re ripped away from me i want to go back home, orlando is my home » Continue Reading
i might be pregnant i’m going to indiana i kinda wanna break up with my boyfriend and i don’t know if im on my period or if it’s implantation bleeding but either way im cramping and im stressed out abt college im also hungry and just spent 18 dollars on a sandwich but i can’t eat it because i don’t know if im pregnant and that’s killing my appetite because i don’t wanna be a teen mom much less a m... » Continue Reading