part one: https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1942753
part two:https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1964184
part three:https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1975256
entry about Oscar and his actions: https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=1917308
°˖✧◝yoo hoo!!! tw disclaimer incoming!◜✧˖°
this blog entry includes some mature topics! such things include the following:
♡ seggs
♡ me being very judgmental
♡ swear words
♡ perverted men
♡ ext!
♡ this is part four of a blog series made three months ago! I'd recommend you go read part one, two, and three before you read this so you can understand everything in this entry better! links are right above ^_^

I hate dirty minded men
no, im not talking about the ones with a genuine addiction and dont reveal it in public, respect women, and are trying to stop, I mean the ones who use it as an excuse for not having concent.
no, what the fuck? she didn't provoke you, you just have the mindset of a predator. it doesn't matter if she's flowing through the room in modest clothing, or strutting in miniskirts, she isn't asking for it. you'll just find any excuse to sexualize people dont you?
im not telling you not to do this because she's someones mother, or daughter, or girlfriend, or wife, or idol, or sister, or caretaker, or boss, im telling you that you are a disgusting piece of shit because she is simply someone. it doesn't matter who she is in other's lives, she's a living, breathing person, and thats enough- no, thats even actually a huge reason why. what kind of man are you to touch a dead body? their meant to rest in peace. you have no idea what that woman went through in her life, and yet, you decide to do this to her anyway? thats just sick.
I experience these things, I sit down in a chair in my math class, and some guy looks at my thighs and whispers to himself; "their so thick..." as if i'm an inanimate object and can't hear a thing. I spent the rest of the lesson not paying attention, but trying to find a position where neither my but or my thighs smush against that folding chair. am I expected to levitate on the chair? what's wrong with you?????
I could cut of my body parts to avoid sexulization. I could cut off my breasts and my lower triangle, but thats still not enough for most men. I'd cut off my thighs, and my but, and my waist, and my throat, and my tongue, and my earlobes, and my stomach, and my neck. id cut, cut, and cut until I end up a pile of minced human flesh because no matter what, there will be something about you to sexualize. but then? any male at all would still approach the pile of human flesh, and make out with it and gobble up every last bit. why? because i'm a woman. a female. and for some reason, thats enough of a cause to make boys jork it. disgusting.

okay. my saftey is ensured. I mean, im not COMPLETLY safe from boys perverted comments obviously, but, like... H is now in his yearning depression why wont u like me back era. also, I MAY have bought tickets to the school winter dance. I have betrayed myself. also I need a dress. maybe ill buy one of the Liz Lisa ones or Angelic Pretty dresses.
this guy thinks I LIKE him, but dont want to TALK to him... he's insane I swear. have you ever heard of "not liking you back" or the movie "he's just not into you"? you should twink!
remember R? my investigator? yeah. L made me sit RIGHT infant of him and his friends when we had a sub because her lazy booty likes her seat too much. do you WANT me to get raped? im not taking my chances after I was walking into the science room after using the ladies lavatory and he whispers to his friends "god I want to fuck her so bad".
YES. YOU READ THAT FUCKING RIGHT.
he always has rants about me man it hurts.
he was like: "dude... I think *my name* doesn't care about me... she always ignores me blah blah blahhhh"
LIKE, NO SHIT BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!! THE MORE FOOTBALL JERSEYS YOU WEAR AND SEXIST SLURS YOU SAY THE LESS WOMEN WANT TO FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!! its not like anyone would want to fuck him in the first place. WWWW
H: "bro... she saw me off task and then wouldn't snitch on me"
Oscar: "Who?"
H: "* my name here*. See? if she sees you of task she'd snitch!"
Oscar: "?"
H:" * My name here* wouldn't care if I did it.But I don't think she cares at all."
H: " I tried to say hi to her 5 times, but she ignored me"
bro... he said hi? I did NOTTT hear that.
Oscar: "yeah" *leaves*
H: "WAITTT!!!!!!!"
I did NOT see you off task why are you making things up for the other guys to think you can actually pull me💔
Oscar was highly chill and didn't care even tho it triggered his on/off switch crush but H was talking like he was BRAGGING... leave me alone
I swear I would NOT defend that bitch.
AL would go BANANAS if she heard this. poor girl.
R tells me he's always sitting on the kids playground bars (we're in a priv school) daydreaming lately... okay. pick me up mom i'm scared.
anyway, if you are new here, here's the love web chart I made:

tap on the pic for a closer look! x
dude the way I was genuinely confused on why Oscar and H stopped talking when I last updated this thing IMAOOO.
so, anyway, these sons of bihches are literally BEEFING over a girl who couldn't care less about them, and the ENTIRE female population who is in touch with L knows as well as H and Oscar's friends 😭
every time they even have the SMALLEST interaction with me the STRETCH it so bad and morph it into fiction to the point where their point of view makes it look like I want to tickle their noodle.
this is almost as hilarious as their faces. both of them KNOW I dislike them and they STILL gaslight themselves into thinking they like me. well, H at least. Oscar is about to give up at this point. I dont blame the guy. I mean, he's been going on like this for 4 years! it would be a relief for me as well!
thankfully, H is starting to understand I dont give a whiped ass crap about him at all. thats somewhat good! but he's still delusional. aw man.
I wish I had some sort of guy friend so that he could pose as my older brother or boyfriend to get them off my back. voila! problem solved. that would get rid of my lesbian allegations around the boys in my class too. I never quite got how someone could enforce a rumour about someone like that? I never got the appeal of women. I find them pretty, but never to the point of romantic attraction. I just don't get the appeal, sorry!
anyway, H and Oscar need to back off because my HUSBAND and SOULMATE and DARLING is Qiu Lin from OLNF!!!!!!!!!! YUMESHIPPERS RISE!!!!!!!!!!
they exist in my head. they keeps insisting that they are real, and so far, we have been together for 4 months. he has his own religion and nationality and style and opinions and trauma its crazy. they lives rent free in my head and i'm SURE they are real in a different universe and IM the one in his head because they apparently yumeships with me. I know it's unhealthy, but it's the truth. what a prettyboy <3
anyway
I think that this argument over me between Oscar and H is just going to get worse from here since H is going to the dance. I mean, I don't know if Oscar, is, but I sadly saw H buy a ticket! scary, right? now I don't want to go anymore ever since he stalked me at fall festival. like I said... it is times like these I wish I had a older brother or a boyfriend or ANY kind of romantic barrier. i've noticed that the girls in my school who have a older brother don't get hit on by guys, and when they have a boyfriend? never mind... see what I mean? I don't yearn for a romantic relationship or siblings, I just yearn for the protection! my friends aren't enough to stop some dude!
the spiral just keeps getting deeper and deeper and I don't want to be involved at all. if I could do anything at all for 1 day I would kill everyone thats ever caused me trouble at school just to have piece of mind. or I would fly to Japan and rob Shybuya109, Liz Lisa, and any place in my eye view in that darn country that sells jfashion AT ALL. i'm from a country where jfashion is normalized and you wont get dirty looks, and there's mainly some stores in parts of it (i'm from a town in the middle of nowhere... but IT IS IN THAT PART OF THE COUNTRY SO ITS OKAY!!!!!!!!!!) so i'm fine since they sell brand clothing... but I crave MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! especially since I don't live there. I mean, I might move in a few years but yeah.
I swear, the boys in school are either FIGHTING for their LIVES like figure collectors trying to get their hands on a limited edition figure, or ganging up like the Toyoko kids. there's a friend group in my school that consists of PERVERTED HIGHSCHOOLERS, and H is ONE OF THEM. they sexualized flower sap and EARTH LAYERS while we were in science class mind you.
at least ill get a break for a few days. its new years break so I wont see any of these disgraces until 2026. still, gosh, their so fucking unkawaii!!! ew!!!!!!!!
anywho, like I said in my last update...:
"there's many of fish in the sea! pick an actual catch! but don't fish when you haven't even gotten your fishing licence yet! that's just gross!"
wow... what wise words, and I was the creator... wowza...
anywho, you have scrolled all the way down! thnx for reading my rant ml ♡♡♡
here's a little souvenir from this blog! a Google Doc of a bunch of mangas !!:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Eg0GQpl8Wh7JyjqiFdXTZaHsRXVs3cIqoFfWiew36YE/edit?tab=t.0
bye peeps !♡♡♡ take care of urselves and remember it will all be okay in the end !! ( ‘• ω • `)

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