Ranking conditions I might have by how devastated I would be by the diagnosis [inspired]

Inspired by: Benny's blog

So the scale is the same, 1 to 10. 1 is the least devastating, and 10 is the kind of devastating that I'd rather die. Might be a bit triggering bcuz the last point is influenced by trauma...

As in for the symptoms: I get dizzy a lot, sometimes with heart palpitations, and tripping even, it mostly happens after eating, I think only or mostly after sugary stuff (sugary drinks are even worse), I got a bout of hypersomnia a month ago, might even get another one but I control it with the alarm clock, increased thirst and urination (but these might be psychosomatic), random times of sleepiness (also usually after sugary foods), like most of the symptoms occur after eating sugary foods or drinking sugary drinks; also I fainted on the train once but don't know if related

Anaemia: 1. I've already had it before and it would not surprise me, yet it would validate my fear. It's also quite easy to treat if found early. Please be anaemia please.

Insulin resistance/Prediabetes/Reactive hypoglycaemia: 3. Might be strange to get used to, but would validate my symptoms and could be helped, maybe not easily, but still.

Diabetes: 5. Was terrified at first, but ended up getting used to the thought of it. I hate needles, but at least my symptoms would be validated, and it can be managed, also I'd get used to the needles probably. I'm at risk anyway, like 60% chance that I'm prediabetic already (due to antipsychotics for my anxiety), so I kind of... reached the stage of acceptance. If I was diagnosed with diabetes I would be scared but not to the point of wanting to die. Also I am kind of drawn to medical equipment despite hating needles, and diabetes comes with lots of these.

Hypochondriasis: 7. While this is not life threatening or anything, I would feel extremely invalid, and I used to have a huge problem with self-invalidating to the point of actually HOPING to get serious terminal illnesses just to feel like I'm a part of something, so I'd rather find out I have something, but something easily reversible.

Postprandial hypotension: 8. Heart & tension related diseases would make me feel like an old lady.

Thyroid issues: 10. I swear that if this is it I will SO relapse. My mum has it, and I want nothing to do with my parents to be honest. I don't hate them anymore, but I want to be a cycle breaker, and getting a disease solely because of genetics from my mum would make me SO UPSET, I swear to Asclepius, the mental hospital will be seeing me again if this happens. Unless it's something fully reversible. Also it would make me feel like a lady in menopause, and if I'd lose my fertility... ISTG this would be the absolute worst thing that would happen. I'd rather get diabetes and be pricked in the belly every single day. I don't want this one mostly because of the mental effects it would have on me, they terrify me.

I will get my thyroid test results tomorrow. Please pray for me, and I'm serious. I know this is common but this would make me so depressed even though I know it shouldn't. But really, I would probably relapse to SH. Getting a disease from my parents would leave me SO devastated. I'd probably end up in the mental hospital again, and cause all the problems mentioned above due to lack of appetite & increased medication doses. I'll take anything. Just not thyroid problems. Please. I trust in you, Asclepius, the God of medicine.

Kind Asklepios, son of far-shooting Apollo,
first of physicians, swiftest of healers, trusted
mender of broken men and women, through you
do the lame walk, the sick renew their good health;
through you are wounds healed, bones knit, and illness
burnt away; by your goodness and might do we regain
joy in our lives. Asklepios, friend of mankind,
I pray to you, I seek your favor. May I
be not have thyroid issues, may I recover
through and through, may vigor and vitality
return to me. Asklepios, compassionate one,
learned one, resourceful one, I ask your blessing.

(this prayer but i changed the text a bit)