a misconception I had about an album that's been my favorite for 15 years. Idkhow to feel about this (... or do I?) PART 2

(this is a follow-up to a blog I wrote a week ago, which I wrote the next day, but am finally posting now.)

I've been thinking about this all day. Still unsure of how to feel about it. I liked my conclusion yesterday about, but I still need to sort through some thoughts.

What triggered this realization was a comment I read on a youtube video of a song posted forever ago. (I was listening to the Brobecks for some reason on Youtube). I like to think I would have figured this out on my own. I had been planning on listening to their demo EPs and albums in the order they were released, as a little marathon for myself, and also to mentally prepare myself to vividly listen to Nuclear Winter with the context of a timeline. Maybe I would have slowly caught on that the voice that sings "Lucinda" is the same voice that later sings "Jacqui".

Other clues that could have helped me figure this out on my own are within The Brobecks Bandcamp in which you'll see Dallon talking about Goodnight and saying "these are the songs I wrote/sang." (How did I misread that?) which are only a few from the album. You'll see the exact same thing for the other albums. No album in its entirety is there. Except Violent Things. It all makes sense now. Why The Brobecks in the wake of their disbandment has been so Violent-Things-heavy. If Dallon is the only guy left promoting Brobecks stuff, of course Violent Things will be the only album on Spotify. Of course when the store opened up a few days ago, it was only Violent Things stuff.

And I always felt a little weird about that, a little weird about Dallon Weekes, about IDKHow, about Violent Things. I never liked it as much as Goodnight. It has a distinctly different feel. Very pretty-boy, very glitter-glam, very emo, very projected-falsetto-voice. That's not The Brobecks I grew up with. That's not the Brobecks I fell in love with. Not really. Not entirely. It's missing something. It's missing Mike Gross.

I looked him up. His solo act and previous collaborations have a total of about 250 monthly listeners on Spotify. One of which, Let's Become Actors, is him and Matt Glass, another Brobeck

I'm actually very excited about this. It's not just the 4 Brobecks albums and handful of demos, the two-and-a-half IDKHow albums and handful of singles. There's more "Brobecks". As far back as 2007, (that's practically as old as Goodnight and Have a Pleasant Tomorrow!). How come he has so few monthly listeners?

Where I left last night in the immediate aftermath of this realization with discomfort and feeling a little dumb and behind and misinformed and hoping to put a positive spin on it, I end this day truly feeling that positive spin.