a misconception I had about an album that's been my favorite for 15 years. Idkhow to feel about this (... or do I?)

A friend lent me Goodnight and Have a Pleasant Tomorrow by The Brobecks in 2009. I fell in love with it. I was in the middle of high school and that album still conjures up the best memories of that time of my life. I cannot fathomably describe HOW that album makes me feel. If there is a heaven and if I go there, God better let me listen to it there.

For some reason, I barely got into any other Brobecks albums until may years later. I knew there were more albums, I remember when Violent Things was new and I listened to it a bit, but I think I wanted to wait until I HAD the albums on my iPod and not just listen to them on youtube/iTunes on the family computer, but still for some reason never bought them.

When I DID finally get around to acquiring and listening to them in the late 2010s, one of the band's leads, Dallon Weekes, had his own band called I Dont Know How But They Found Me (IDKHow). For that as well as my knowledge of the fact that he was the main creator behind Violent Things, I knew who Dallon Weekes was.

So, when I finally listened to their two older albums, Understanding the Brobecks and Happiest Nuclear Winter, I could immediately point out which songs were sung by Dallon and which were sung by the another guy, (Mike Gross, I learned his name to be). I would think to myself "Yeah, I like Dallon's voice more. You know, the lead singer for IDKHow, Violent Things, and Goodnight & have a pleasant tomrw."

But now I'm finally just now looking it up and am learning -and I feel quite dumb for thinking otherwise - that Mike sings half of the songs on that album! I had to go through it just now and TRY to hear certain songs as Not Dallon. And oh my gosh how did I not realize those are two different voices?

I think it just has to do with my far-more acute and present familiarity with Dallon Weekes - from Violent thing to IDKHow - my negligence to do any research, and most of all, how INGRAINED Goodnight has become in my mind. I've listened to each song hundreds of times. They sound exactly the way they sound. My mind has blended the two singers' voices together and triangulated a comprehensive single-person's voice that IS those two voices, and experience told me it was Dallon Weekes.

I don't know how to feel about this. It's extremely obvious, comparing it to Understanding and Winter, and even just listening to differing tracks like West of California vs I'll Break Your Arm. With how important this album is to me and my soul, I don't know how to feel about this. I feel lied to (by my own brain).

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... Hold on, I think I know how to feel about this. I began writing this about half an hour ago. But now, I think I have my resolution:

As I was writing, I remembered that the little inner sleeve with the CD said something like "Mike sang some songs, Dallon sang others." And yes, I looked it up, found a picture of it. It pretty much says exactly that.

So, I knew this back in 2009, but - as speculated - somewhere along the way, I mandala-effected myself to think it was all Dallon lead singing, and turned my brain into my 2020's version of a Goodnight-and-have-a-pleasent-tommorow fan. But NOW that that part of my brain is unlocked, I can listen to this album the way I used to, the way I FORGOT I used to listen to it. I was so scared about having the wool pulled over my eyes and hearing GAHAPT in a way I wasn't used to ("Oh no half the songs are Not-Dallon!") When in reality, I had already pulled the wool over my own eyes long ago and just now FINALLY removed it! I am one step closer to being who I was in 2009. I am rejuvenating. I am remember who I used to be. I'm becoming complete. Goodnight And Have A Pleasant Tomorrow is no longer an album I have listened to two-hundred times and have become numb to. I just borrowed it from my friend yesterday and am about to listen to it for the first time.

TLDR: I've listened to Goodnight & Pleasant Tomrow so much I've nearly become numb to it, still love it. Thought it was all lead-sung by Dallon, learned it wasn't. Shattered my perception of this fave album. Mid-writing, remembered that I USED to know this fact. Now I feel like I can listen to it again w/the same freshness I did in the late 2000s.