hello once more dear. i know these letter i address to you. will be letters you shall never see. however i still prefer to convey my strange thoughts. i miss the sweet innocent love we once shared. those moments so long ago, still bring me a string of hope. a string of hope that shows me there might still be some decency, buried far below the moist soil of the earth. wh » Continue Reading
i try and try and try again. to climb through the window emitting that soft glow. that bewitching light. the light that could save me. i blink once, and the glorious light starts to diminish. "oh, please dont leave me now!" i cry out. faster and faster it abandons me. i felt if i make one more movement and it surly will be lost forever. i soon fall down to wail. » Continue Reading
the chamber where my heart lies, yearns for the warmth and glow of your flesh. but yet i believe i will never find it. since i have not met you yet. » Continue Reading
TW: SH as i bring the blade to my flesh, i question myself. will i have to beg for forgiveness in the end? will i just burden my woeful soul even more so? as i lie alone, i question my true intentions. am i doing this for myself or them? have i caused this or have they? » Continue Reading
TW: mentions of sh i didnt ask to be here. i wanted to take a different path in my life. and only you ended up standing in the way. you caused all this sorrow. you caused the liquid seeping down my arms. as i stand in front of you crying out, "are you proud of me now?" you caused my endless nights of weeping. and still you ask for some pitiful forgiveness. » Continue Reading
i dug our graves my dear. i dug the hole we would both fall my down my love. i dug the bottomless pit we would rot in my darling. but i will never take the blame » Continue Reading
its not that i dont want you. its that i cant want you. i cant need you. i cant long for your touch once more. that part of the tale has ended. i will never wail for you again. » Continue Reading
the blood flowing through my veins is turning stales again. the groom still hasnt lifted the brides veil. in the darkness i mourn and wail. where are you now? and the promises you made me. where are they now? » Continue Reading
TW: ED AND SH i feel as if i have to punish myself. i hit myself for even thinking about eating that candy bar. i cut myself for saying those distasteful things. things that leave a sour taste in my mouth. are they mad at me? do they loathe me as i loathe myself? what the hell did i do this time? every time i give a part of myself, » Continue Reading