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What the Earth Will Make of Me

Category: Writing and Poetry

From my rotting body something shall grow Something small, Something that still wants to reach the light. Maybe a flower, Maybe just a bit of grass that no one notices, But it’ll still be mine. The earth will take me slow, Bit by bit, until I’m nothing But part of everything else. And that’s okay. I’ve always wanted to rest somewhere quiet, Somewhere that doesn’t ask anything of me. » Continue Reading

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If I Could Just Scream

Category: Writing and Poetry

I hate that feeling when you cry and you can’t breathe. your chest hurts so bad it actually feels like it’s breaking. like someone’s stabbing you right in the middle and you just sit there, taking it. it’s not just sadness. it’s anger. the kind that burns behind your ribs, that shakes your hands I’m full of rage that has nowhere to go. like i could scream until my throat gives out and it st » Continue Reading

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More Than This

Category: Writing and Poetry

“There’s so much more to life,” I tell myself again. the words trembling on my tongue, barely louder than my own sigh as if saying them out loud might make them true. My body feels worn out, the kind of tired that sleep can’t fix. And my heart feels heavier than I want to admit. It’s been carrying too much for too long. Still, I keep repeating it, because deep down, I want to believe, no, I have » Continue Reading

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One Day

Category: Writing and Poetry

One day, you’ll look back and thank every storm that ever wrecked your plans. Every path that closed on you, every moment that left you confused and aching, you’ll realize it wasn’t the world being cruel it was just trying to guide you somewhere else. You’ll see how every detour had a reason, how every heartbreak, every loss, wasn’t punishment but protection. You were never being denied what was m... » Continue Reading

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You

Category: Writing and Poetry

The world was burning loud around me, voices clashing, days collapsing, everything felt like it was crumbling into pieces, too sharp to hold. like I was walking barefoot across shards of glass that no one else seemed to see. I woke with storms in my chest, went to sleep with thunder in my head, and everywhere I turned the world pressed harder, too fast, too loud, too much of everything » Continue Reading

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The Fool

Category: Writing and Poetry

My imagination is the most human part of me. It refuses to stay quiet. It keeps building things out of nothing,  palaces out of dust, It keeps me alive, keeps me reaching for more than what my hands can hold. It paints love in colors I’ve never touched, shows me tenderness I haven’t yet lived, gives me versions of myself that are stronger, braver, kinder. Sometimes I think I am most alive i » Continue Reading

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Garden

Category: Writing and Poetry

Flowers are blooming in my lungs, The kind that chokes. Their petals press against my ribs, bright, delicate, mocking my struggle for air. Everyone tells me they’re beautiful, this garden I never planted. They marvel at the colors, how the blossoms unfurl when I speak. But they don’t feel the thorns inside, don’t hear the way I wheeze between every word. I can’t fucking breathe. » Continue Reading

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The Shape of Your Name

Category: Writing and Poetry

Some nights, sleep would not come to me until I built you out of memory. I’d close my eyes and summon the soft weight of your voice, the warmth tucked between syllables, like a blanket pulled over tired skin. I’d breathe deep, imagining the trace of your scent lingering in the dark, as if the air itself remembered you better than I did. I reach for the pillow beside » Continue Reading

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Paper-Thin Composure

Category: Writing and Poetry

I swear, I never really grew up, I just got taller, learned how to hide the shaking in my voice and call it composure. I still get scared of being left out, still overthink what I said two days ago, still stare at the ceiling some nights wishing someone would tuck me in, tell me I did enough for the day. I walk around in this adult body, doing adult things,  signing forms, paying bill » Continue Reading

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Existing

Category: Writing and Poetry

My spark died quietly, slowly, like a candle left alone, burning itself out while no one was watching. I used to get excited about things. Even the smallest things, a plan with friends, a new book, a dream I swore was mine to keep. I’d count down the days, imagine how it would feel, and let myself believe. But time after time, everything I waited for slipped away. Pe » Continue Reading

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Unlearning Survival

Category: Writing and Poetry

I know I’m not easy to love. I’ve stopped trying to deny it. The things I’ve been through changed me, left me cautious and wired and always waiting for something to go wrong. I hate that about myself, how I can turn something soft into a warning sign, how I can be happy and still search for proof that it won’t last. I think too much. It’s exhausting being inside my own head sometimes. I overanalyz... » Continue Reading

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The Cost of Strength

Category: Writing and Poetry

They said, "at least it made you stronger", as if survival was something to be proud of. But my heart ached, because I never wanted to become unbreakable, I just wanted to be safe enough to stay soft. My inner child still sits there, in the corner of every memory, clutching a hope too small to be noticed, murmuring, "I asked for love, not lessons" I wanted gentle hands, not the kind that only taug... » Continue Reading

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