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Category: Life
Senior year is approaching. It’s really close and I’m so excitedly petrified. I ended last year horribly. My mental health was at an all time low and went through one of the worst depressive episodes I’ve had since I moved to America. Shit was so bad it had me FANTASIZING about moving back to Germany. Crazy. But turns out I just needed to lock in. So far I’m ready for next year but there is still ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Senior year is basically here. I have huge dreams for my future. It’s scary. But what’s even scarier is my current plight. My family wants to leave America and go back to Europe once I graduate, especially Germany. However, I based my dreams around staying here in America and going to Howard University. While Germany is 100x better than the US, I still dk if it’s what I want. Going to an HBCU woul... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Senior year is basically here. I have huge dreams for my future. It’s scary. But what’s even scarier is my current plight. My family wants to leave America and go back to Europe once I graduate, especially Germany. However, I based my dreams around staying here in America and going to Howard University. While Germany is 100x better than the US, I still dk if it’s what I want. Going to an HBCU woul... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Senior year is basically here. I have huge dreams for my future. It’s scary. But what’s even scarier is my current plight. My family wants to leave America and go back to Europe once I graduate, especially Germany. However, I based my dreams around staying here in America and going to Howard University. While Germany is 100x better than the US, I still dk if it’s what I want. Going to an HBCU woul... » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
As my junior year wraps up, my rookie year for my schools drill team is also coming to an end. Even though as a freshman, I would’ve loved to not stay on drill and move up to dance , I know that drill is the right place for me. I have improved so much as a dancer and I can’t wait to see what the new year brings. I want to try to be an officer next year because there are SO many things that went w... » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
It's the final quarter of junior year, AKA major testing szn. I am beyond horrified. I have always been a pretty bad test taker and the SAT is making me poop my pants. And it's only the math portion im scared about. The SAT's scares me more than my AP tests. I REALLY want to go to my dream school (Howardddd Go Bison!!) but I am so scared that that will all go down the drain if I do bad on this one... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Everyone clap I got my grades back up to all A’s (except 1) WOOP. I was quite literally struggling last quarter it was a hot mess. But I’m back on my grind now ^o^!! Now I just gotta lock in for spring break. I’m supposed to be OUT this week so who knows. Something in me is telling me smth insane is about to happen but ykw…do it for the plot ig. I definitely have crashed out on this website a few ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
IM FINALLY 17!!!! Finally it literally took forever. I ended 16 on a good note. i got myself a job, got my permit, healed from past issues, and brought my grades up. Being born on the first day of the month means that I can actually sit down and assess the upcoming year and see how the month is going to go. I've been doing some more tarot readings ever since I got two new decks (thanks Gigi and Ka... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
OMG I went to my city's killfest this weekend and I am just so AHHH. It was one of the most intense things I've ever done. The moshpits, the crowd-divers, and the music was just so amazing. It happened inside of an old warehouse that got turned into a place where artists can perform and it was a lot bigger than I was expecting. 10/10. My body is super sore now though so...LOL. I can't wait to go t... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
I’ve been sitting and thinking about my life recently and I’m like…Idk im so conflicted. Since I’ve had this account I’ve gone through 3 relationships and I’m starting to think that I’m a bop but that is NAWT the case. I think that I’ve just been needing a place to get all of this out because it’s been killing me and I know that I can let everything out here. Since my last ex broke up with me, for... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
Jk guys I was just being silly. Who knew that getting under the influence would allow me to get out ALL of my feelings that was stated in the last blog post XD. Anygays, I winded up spilling to her abt EVERYTHING and she was like "naurrrr I swearrrr this isn't a prankkk" and she wrote this whole ESSAY reassuring me so I GUESSSS I gotta believe her. Lolz trust I do believe her. I'm just in shock. E... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
Okay so there is a lot to unpack. Two days ago my crush of like 6 MONTHS finally confessed to me. And I was BEYOND ecstatic but I have a lot and I mean A LOT of doubts, questions, and concerns. She said she liked me for a whole month before she confessed WHICH I BELIEVE but like...WHAT! Now when she did confess it all made sense ngl...but it's still super confusing. For the longest while she told ... » Continue Reading
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