i hate even after a year of avoiding you, you still make me cry like a baby. i continue to ignore you.. but really i see every message you send. and you still don't understand half of the abuse me and my family had to take from you. you message that you love me but where was that when i was bawling on the ground, bruises forming on my body from where your hands touched. im trying to move on and b... » Continue Reading
hey, it's been a while. i hope you're doing well, because you deserve something good. i'm kinda tired of people not understanding that they do. you're not a bad person. you're not worthless. i love thinking of the fact that every part of us are made of star dust. isn't that cool? we all are decendents of these big bright orbs in space just walking around. we are star children, as hippy-dippy as th... » Continue Reading
dispite the title- merry christmas! yesterday was christmas eve, it was probably super awful. but whatevah! i almost passed out at my boyfriend's family gathering- when everyone left. and he dropped me at my house then just left. we got in a big fight from that, cause who does that?? my boyfriend- i guess. whatchagonadoabboutit? either way, i told him passingly "i guess you should leave" cause h... » Continue Reading
I have an audition soon and its driving me up the wall- i am so scared. as i always am before any auditions- i just hope i do well.. tell me to break every leg i have!! (insert me doing the freaky tongue thing) » Continue Reading
It's late but i have nothing tomorrow! yay! im a little drunk listening to tv girl, theyre super good. its really nice to listen to something soft right now. (im saying this listening to 'my girlfriend' on repeat) i really like how sweet it sounds, listening to the lyrics make me sad tho. is that how every guy feels with a depressed gf? i've been thinking a lot on where i want to go, i have so ma... » Continue Reading
i fear i cant sleep again, it's a weird kinda mental block. my brain may be too active, my throat too tight, the fan too loud. and i just remembered i had this- so! my thoughts will be placed in the space hey blog. i really dont know if this will help me sleep better but i kind of have a gut feeling it could. and whoever is reading this maybe can get a light read in! positives all around anywayss... » Continue Reading