there's never been a saturday before, has there? this is the first every saturday and it feels as new and untouched as it feels like the repetition of a thousand lives prior. i am, again, in my childhood home. i have read about fear recently and have been wanting to speak to it. i am still in this process. however, the matters that currently pertain me are ones of physical nature. ones of feeling... » Continue Reading
its a far far away thursday. not so far, really, but far enough. im now im my childhood home where i learnt all my fears and i've been thinking a lot about it, about fear. i made a list. its a secret list but i'll share it here, because this is my secret place. i made a fear list, with all my fears and all my worries and i made it because making a list means i have to cross them off and therefore ... » Continue Reading
right now, sitting on this sofa where the sun hits only my left leg, i can't help but wonder if i can ever trust myself in anything i say, feel or think. she seems so far away - this childishly severe-looking person - but my stomach hurts and i somehow feel that connects us. our stomach hurts, so we're one. i can trust that it hurts and somehow in pain and uncomfortability lies an odd synergy betw... » Continue Reading
the minotaur by george frederic watts, 1885. the minotaur overlooks his home's walls towards the sea, leaning on the edge eagerly. in his left hand/claw a presumably dead bird, its beak half open and eyes squinted. » Continue Reading
global worming (about a worm that unknowingly experiences the effects of global warming in its ecosystem) these dust-striken archways feel teethless now a sun-baked home far away from the sun have we reached the center of the earth, of life? have we reached the center of the earth, of life? the everything magma the heart of us all leaving a slight taste of iron on our tong » Continue Reading
lately i can't stop listening to haley henderickx's oom sha la la and the words "i need to start a garden" echo in my head like a repetitive and gutural war call. i'm throwing out the milk the olives got old i'm tired of my mind getting heavy with mold i need to start a garden i need to start a garden i need to start a garden i need to start a garden i've been reading 'civilization and its discon... » Continue Reading