The day feels uncertain. I am crying. There is no pain just kind of emptyy. I miss my husband he went to work already. I am going to work soon, i have to leave at 2 it is 1:14 right now. Most days i dont know what to do with myself, at least in the mornings. My body hurts, i havent stretched in so long. Not in the way that i want. I am overwelmed with possibilities and responsability. I want to wo... » Continue Reading
I Wanted to see what it would be like to go a day without taking my ativan and xanax and its been weird. I took kratom so its different i feel my feelings again and theyre so much. So big So intense. I have bpd btw but yeah man i was super depressed and started drawing which was good. Then i put on my ren fair costume and my makeup i listening to that one song porqye te vas. i feel better now i ta... » Continue Reading
Things were blurry Woke up rambling. I was trying to explain how this song was stuck in my head called lonesome organist rapes page-turner and how knowing that the lead singer married neil gaimen and i love their work so much but knowing what he did and her writing songs like that. Maybe she was stuck with him too idk anyway then my head was hurting sooo much i woke up hunngover as fuckkkkk. I had... » Continue Reading