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Category: Friends
I’m scared to, having to face his parents after he died. How do you do that? How do you face the people who basically led him there, how do you attend a third funeral in a year for a friend. I feel so exhausted, I don’t even know if I can do it anymore. It’s not worth me taking up space, everyone’s right. I’m pathetic. I’m no good sober let alone drunk. I should’ve done everyone a favor a long tim... » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
I don’t understand, why would you do it? Why’d you take your life, I thought it would’ve been me first. I hope you weren’t in pain, I hope it was quick. I’m sorry I missed the call; I’m sorry I was at work when you called I thought you just were looking for a chat. I swore I would’ve called you the next morning, I’m so sorry. I’m so fucking sorry. » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
I genuinely don’t understand why, why can’t they understand the simple idea of not everyone thinks like them. Genuinely, my first day of break, I’m nauseous, been so ill all day almost fainted at my appointment, had a meeting in the morning, a test right after the meeting, had to take so many pain meds I genuinely couldn’t think, and yet it’s my fault for not knowing they didn’t want fucking solut... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
God I feel so disgusted by myself, I feel appalled to think I have the audacity to believe I deserve to Eat a meal. I feel disgusted that I believe I deserve anything but suffering. I honestly hate the people who surround me sometimes, I hate those who think they’re my friends. I have a twat clinging to me at school and I’ve told her to get away from me, genuinely I wish I could isolate myself fro... » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
I feel so ashamed watching my friends come to me for help, I hate when they text me sometimes and I can’t help but feel sorry for myself. I hate relapsing, I hate self harming and drinking whenever I feel like shit. I genuinely feel so shitty it kills me. I don’t deserve to have friends, I hate how awful people make me feel when I open up about it. I hate how I can think better when I’m not sober,... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Everytime I come home I get screamed at for something, genuinely it’s starting to make me never want to come home. It sucks to believe I sometimes wish I’d never make it home so my family realizes they wasted all their time screaming at me rather than asking me how my day went. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I lost my 5 year sobriety, but I am trying to work towards it again. Even if I struggle, sports need me. And I need sports, I just hope I don’t drink myself to death before I get back on that court. I’d die if I could never compete again. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I can’t do it anymore, I can’t even get up for school, I can’t even answer my friends, I can’t do it anymore. I’m seriously done trying just for it to not matter. Wouldn’t matter if I was gone, everyone would move on so quickly. What’s the point tbh » Continue Reading
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Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
I’m in so much pain, the fact a grown adult shoved me into a door because she wanted to get into the show disgusts me. I’m house manager and the moment we opened the doors she shoulder checked me, couldn’t get through so when I opened the second door she slammed me against the door handle. I not only stepped out for almost the entire show, but I threw up, I haven’t slept in 3 days. I was riddled w... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I feel like I’m ready to hurl, my head hurts so much, I feel so sick. I can’t sleep, I’m so stressed. I’m so done, I want to cry so badly but if I do it’ll hurt more. » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
Truth be told I don’t want to move on, but I know if I don’t I know how drastic I can be. If he’d asked me to pull the trigger on myself oh how I would, if he asked me to do the most insane thing I would’ve done it if it meant just one more conversation. But he wouldn’t ask me to hurt myself, he wouldn’t even ask me to talk to him. The best decision is to block someone you know hates you. You can’... » Continue Reading
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