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trophy hunting

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the commodification of hunting (and very arguably fishing but that's for later) into a form of sport that robs it of the weight one believes it should have in the minds of the hunter. however far one feels empathy for the hunted, the pure facts are that you visit death on another living animal, and one more similar to you than it isn't.  for the purposes of survival, whether that is sustenance or ... » Continue Reading

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movies and visions

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my dad's been on a ww2 war movie kick recently which has been an experience because theyre really interesting to Me specifically, for a specific reason. i like to use them (or they use me) as an opportunity to properly to think through what it would have really been like to live through and around these things, although thats a deceptively mild way to word the experience. its almost like i'll feel... » Continue Reading

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wow why are feelings

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as i type this im sitting here and continuing the mild personal crisis ive been having nonstop for like a week now which is to say im still processing the visible shift in my relationship to a friend i've made through work into something resembling actual friendship, and then i still put in my resignation anyway. so i've been sitting here slow-panicking and agonizing about all the possible ways th... » Continue Reading

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realizations 2

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while reading Carl Jung, i've noticed he often brings up the notion of the 'irrational' or subconscious moods or deeds which the person themself suffering, does not understand. it's a pillar, perhaps the pillar of his view of consciousness and psychology.  myself, i wonder for how much of these accounts, the person involved did know or understand these things but refused, or perhaps couldn't elabo... » Continue Reading

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realizations

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while at work today, i had something of an epiphany on the nature of self-hatred. prior to this, i had somehow seen it as a phenomenon so separated from myself as to be unaddressable. it was a huge, painful knot rooted very deep in every corner of myself and no matter how much i tried i couldn't even find the ends to try to untie or loosen this violent-natured knot but this gave me the clarity to ... » Continue Reading

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ecosystem worldbuilding

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i think fundamentally daunts me from trying to talk about my worldbuilding project is that because of the scale there's so much that i havent even had the time (or education) to start thinking about. recently thanks to my beloved agus i've been thinking more about marine ecosystems in terms of 1) how massive and diverse they are 2) how they affect even life on land. which is also a ridiculously ri... » Continue Reading

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net/physical balance

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actually i'm kind of hoping that this will be better for my attention span than using tumblr, especially since right now it feels quieter hanging out with my friends. i might try writing some form of longer-form things and posting them here but also we'll see...... » Continue Reading

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placeholder theme

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im going to actually learn how to make my own layouts eventually but for now im using the windows xp theme by cory because i grew up on windows xp yay » Continue Reading

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