"thinking about napping"
I'd be apathetic if I didn't care so much
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I stayed up late last night making a playlist. One of the best I've ever made - moody, lyrical, dark. I felt like 20 year old me again. Then I woke up this morning and threw my back out while making my bed. I really didn't need to be brought back to reality like that. So now I'm stoned on painkillers, drinking an energy drink, and crocheting. I am a goddamn mess. » Continue Reading
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So, I'm 43 years old and when I was 19-ish, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Later on, I was also diagnosed with PTSD, generalized anxiety, and ADHD. So I'm REAL fun at parties. I'm also what Catieosaurus brilliants calls a "Burnt Out Gifted and Talented Submissive Brat with a Praise Kink". Only part of that is relevant in this moment, but the description fits nonetheless. My mental health h... » Continue Reading
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I break the silence with my voice And everyone turns 'round To see the source of all the noise And here I stand It's not as though I mean to upset you With the things I say and do I should know better, but I said so anyway It's easier to play a part And read your lines Than freely speak what's in your heart And in your mind Is it me Who says these things that so offend you Inappropriate and loud » Continue Reading
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We're starting to have some warmer days on the east cost (it's 60 degrees today!) and I'm getting the itch to travel. The past 2 years have been a nearly un-ending span of hiding away to keep safe. But things feel like maybe they're starting to get under control. They'll never go back to "normal" but I finally feel comfortable to venture out a bit. I want to road trip with the sunroof open, feelin... » Continue Reading
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It's supposed to snow tonight in NYC. I'd love to stay up all night and watch it fall, but as unproductive as I am on a good day, I'm even worse when I haven't slept. So I should go to bed at some point. I've been working on making my office a little more inviting. Apparently, my idea of "inviting" is being bathed in rainbow colored light. I've got a strip of LED lights slowly pulsing their ROYGB... » Continue Reading
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Having the same issue now that I had back in the MySpace days - wanting to blog but not wanting to come across as boring and self-indulgent. I guess a blog is, by its nature, self-indulgent so I should just deal with that. And as far as boring, well...it is what it is. Christmas 2021 is in the books, and 2022 is about to begin. As much as I hate the "new year, new me" bullshit, I kind of do want ... » Continue Reading
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