ugliness in all its glory. the filth in my soul and on my floor and on the words i spoke a stain not to be washed out. to be understood is to be seen an invisible mans ultimate dream cover up in glitter and hope it glistens loud enough hope it doesnt make a noise. too loud too much the disco ball is spinning too fast again a savior holds out his hand. » Continue Reading
dimming star already had its supernova i see all these planets orbit around me and i beg them to stay as i die . in the sea of galaxies i cant quite place myself as i lay on the cold hard ground the setting sun takes my words with it am i nothing? am i nothing? am i nothing? am i nothing? » Continue Reading
i dont barricade for a flood thatll take me anyways. might pick up running so i can get far away start anew all over again a half-broken heart and a half-lost mind. its written on my eyelids on the inside of my shirt half-made promises and half-solved problems everything comes in halves and im always on the empty end. » Continue Reading
kick me to the curb like a rock by the sidewalk i dont think ill ever understand. no one sees what i see i go as far as my body lets me until i collapse under the weight of myself . withdrawals of lexapro and withdrawals of you . i rip another page of meaningless babble i dont deserve to say may the streetlights findmy way far from here. » Continue Reading
matte lipstick the r rolls off the tongue brand name rubbed off price tag torn garage sale negotiation $5 or a $100? take a little and kiss me with it cover me in matte and add the missing piece. » Continue Reading
arm around my back or around my throat got me in a headlock but i hid the key. stareoff with the otherside my eyes meet mine. empty thrills and cheap words. got what i wanted at last we bar the door off with all we have and laugh the biggest losers always win. » Continue Reading
you are so perfect like an autumn leaf you didnt even bat an eye when i crumpled you on the run. orange fading into yellow my consciousness fades into yours two souls as one both cracked and bruised.i start to understand what "like a deer in headlights" really means. good thing were long distance i think looking in those eyes would break me my best friend my angel my world. » Continue Reading
the cd spins one way then the other it seems nothing recorded after all. im a vessel for my own conjectures it was like that give or take the hazes empty me of meaning. everything behind me collapses with every step and fades into nothing but scraps of archeological evidence for an older me i forget forget forget old messages i dont know the meaning of a "do you remember when" and whatever comes ... » Continue Reading
spent the day in a hungover frenzy but i feel alive. do yourself a favor and buy an old digicam. college life is calling me at last. i saw broken traffic lights on my way home stop or go it doesnt really matter though i'd like some instructions. tell me where to go. road in repairs sometimes you just gotta wait. i see something in your eyes but you keep them closed and suddenly im nothing nowhere.... » Continue Reading
two ends meet but not quite hold you let it loose and my arms are too weak the DNA test says 100% Nowhere it's just another hotel room i can't afford another visa revoked another passport expired . more of a chore than anything else i see something within nothing alarm bells deafening me to the world hold my hand even if just to leave me in the settling dust it's in my eyes it's in my mouth it cl... » Continue Reading
i dance on the sharp edges lining up like meat for a butcher graze your arm lightly against me and watch the earth stop spinning your eyes look off somewhere far away the shapes your mouth makes dont make much sense. brand new box outside my door but i find the same old inside i almost believed you. bloody mary bloody mary bloody mary at least i can be sure to see her when i call a warm hug on m... » Continue Reading
to be a piece of trash you kick aside on the pavement isnt much more than i am right now in circles my words go praying to talk without really speaking the worst of it always seems to coincide. my form wraps around the false promise rip it all off before i believe it burn my heart alive its the happiest ending its going to get. stranded in the storm i let the flood take me its caress gentle like n... » Continue Reading