czy jest jeszcze dla mnie nadzieja? wciąż za murem wciąż bez siÅ‚ żeby siÄ™ wspiąć wciąż nikt nie wybiÅ‚ przejÅ›cia. chcÄ™ zacząć od nowa spalić każdy most iść póki siÅ‚a w nogach odnaleźć siebie gdzieÅ› miÄ™dzy drzewami i opuszczonymi budynkami. wciąż strach wciąż chowam siÄ™ jak pokrzywdzone zwierzÄ™ nie potrafiÄ™ nic a chcÄ™ wszystkiego. oni wszyscy majÄ… innych a ja mam tylko ich siedziaÅ‚em w skorupie zby... » Continue Reading
fear is instrumental to my being the tiniest scribble between the lines and i lose sight of it all. unspoken jealousies cloud my senses desperately taking the tidbits of love you feed to me like a starving bird i counted less crumbs than yesterday you simply grabbed a handful as always but its just not the same. the needy chirps come out all choked up will you bother to go grab some more? i strugg... » Continue Reading
you're a mosaic of everyone you've loved but what if they didn't love you? my mind gets tangled in the cobwebs always too much and never enough i gave you the key to my heart and you scowled in disgust at the parts you didn't like. you left your lies on the counter and now the rot is mine to deal with can anyone still save me? can i still save myself? » Continue Reading
hug the trees because you've got nothing else my eyes catch a glimpse of another world between the leaves but it disappears before your hand can even try to reach out. the birds lament to me their sky high ambitions vs mine carefully place 6 feet under is there any hope left for me? i walk every unfamiliar path try to catch my shadow but i end up going in circles everyone seems to have it all figu... » Continue Reading
i lost those wavelengths long ago and i can't tell if i've outgrown it all or fallen behind nothing makes much sense and i struggle talking to anyone but you nowadays. the consideration in your words makes me wonder why i was ever okay with anything else the grace you've given me not so seamless and i feel out of my element faux vulnerabilities and half-hearted affections still fresh behind my pup... » Continue Reading
dissociative cognitive dissonance all i am is a liar but i dont even know when im lying i love you but some part of me doesn't or maybe it's the other way around. slap on the wrist or in the face take your pick i forget the words i refused to speak out loud but the walls will learn to talk someday. every voice sings a different song and i wish someone would turn the speaker off. who are you again? » Continue Reading
jealousy is a disease i need to consume you whole and trap you in my bloodstream. just a goddamn lunatic your hand in mine as i fantasize about leading you away when your eyes are not on me just look at me me me me me me me me. selfish and obsessed i hope to be forgiven someday. you dance inside my eyelid as i wake will we still stand under the same umbrella in the downpour?(i have my spot in your... » Continue Reading
taped a coke zero can up just so it would still taste good the next morning im just wondering why i do this to myself.teeth rotting faster than my brain and i stare at the clouds with my eyes closed. everything is beautiful yet my camera gets emptier my friends are beautiful but something inside me screams to back off BACK OFF so i lean away straight into a canyon. not-so-aesthetic freefall. will ... » Continue Reading
interlacing anger with regret i remain unvindicated played like a fucking joke. the space i hold in your heart feels strangely claustrophobic and you kick me in the stomach as i crawl out purge my mind like you purged your conscience and let me forget what you drink away. may your liver give out faster than my will to live an october night painted red and blue in systematic motion nothing you fo... » Continue Reading
the cop out the plan B the one hit by every bullet that ricochets off a distant target. keep me guessing till i lose my mind. loverboy cant separate the lover from the boy if love leaves me i will shatter never stop fearing never stop running one day someone will prove you wrong or maybe prove you right. taping my own mouth shut hide your ego deep inside and hope it disappears but itll burst like ... » Continue Reading
circle in a circle im stuck between the walls trying to crawl through. parallels and deja vu dictate every move and i start shaking at a combination of words again i forfeit to meaningless patterns i love you i really do but im justthe thorns not the rose im sorry i lied. wrapped myself up in a bouquet but exposed to the world i prick at your fingers again .i never changed only found better excuse... » Continue Reading
my legs collapse in on themselves and the floor welcomes me with its familiar coldness ive got no words left to speak no pain left to express i am hollow . i still shake leaning against the heater it burns but its not enough the icy sensation never leaves my fingertips and i can never reach for someone elses hand. its hidden in the nausea in the unspoken relapses the times the world crashes down f... » Continue Reading
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