the soda pop has gone flat once again

i desperately need to find a new persona- i mean soda. i desperately need to find a new soda. the sodas that are currently in my possession fail to maintain my interest. been there. tried that. it's all so boring. where are the new flavors? if i find a remotely cool soda it's flat. if there's one thing about me, i hate being me- flat soda. i hate flat soda. there's no kick when you take a sip. where is the fun in that? i want the carbonation to make me wish i never took a sip from the fizzle in my nostrils. you could argue that's a bit extreme, but that's what makes soda cool, no?

i mean... it'd be silly of me to present a version of myself i wish to not be perceived as. i mean...isn't it exhilarating to be able to edit yourself like you are a video game character? that might be an exaggeration, but it's still cool. i might just be trying to reassure myself. i wonder how i can be myself when everything i know takes me so far from the very basics of my personality. if i am so different, it means i never really knew myself and instead forced myself to live a life i didn't want. if i can convince myself it was fun, it may be fine. no need to stress. 

i'm sorry i got off topic. soda. soda is cool. there will be plenty of sodas to drink when i'm older. i don't need sodas right now...

i don't need sodas...

i don't need a real soda...

i don't need my soda...

i-

i...

what was i talking about again?

oh right! soda! i hope to find a flavor that resonates on a deep level.