give me some part in the ensemble, that's plenty. i don't think i can handle more or i'll just be stuck in my head. maybe it's exciting for some, maybe because they want to get stuck in there, too. maybe i can do an alright job of lying, saying the appeal of being stuck like that isn't lost on me, if that's what they like--it'll be a lie until i stop writing all this shit. no one wou... » Continue Reading
tear apart every inch of this open sea set sail tonight to find you we’re both so far past our time due— it’s a shame you wear it well i’ve seen the hand that you’ve been dealt would you listen if i told you it’s familiar? can you show me where they all were and pretend i couldn’t tell? don’t bother asking me to leave you af » Continue Reading
i'll give you neat, straight, and narrow if that's what you prefer. we missed the last bus of the night by at least an hour, so please just work with me; look me in my face when i tell you it's not on purpose, look any longer and we won't need words to make it clear that not a second of this was a choice. does that sound like a deal to you? because i'm on my knees hoping by the hundredth time i'll... » Continue Reading
i can tell from here you hope i'm kind enough to point out when you fall out of step with the rest of them. it's nothing, because you were never much of a dancer, anyways. they all know it, too, but it's not as bad of a look as they'll let on. some people really appreciate it--i know, there's a someone for everything, please don't bother. and please don't give me that look. you'll get your moment.... » Continue Reading
undeniable truth hitting me right in the jaw in the shape of the hundredth "you're just like me" so far--i'm not much at all except hardwired to mimic your every move. it started out fairly laughable, but now it's this or nothing, my secret weapon and my absolute worst trait all in one. please don't take it personally. i don't want to disappoint. » Continue Reading
feel constantly drawn to those surfaces too soft to avoid, too barren, pulled taught. let hindsight take form in the way it all just raises up ( read: adheres, over and fucking over ) compared to the rest of you, in the way that it's never quite left. hindsight be damned, you'll never admit that this is what shapes you into familiarity. you'll never admit that you feel this is the closest you'll ... » Continue Reading
your hands and your hands and your hands and your hands and your hands, and mine juxtaposed against this highway, this sky, these trees, your ceiling the world can’t seem to fucking stand it—we’re laughing all night in their faces because we’ve found our place and it’s something they’ll never even know i almost can’t help but feel bad, i bet our laughs probably even sound a lot like theirs, too r... » Continue Reading
1. feeling forever stuck filling in the blank, hoping that i get it right this time, and 2. accepting my words as my own personal dogma i'm getting comfortable with the realization that most things are double-edged now. yes, i've taken this ride before. i'll try not to make too big of a deal out of it and just ignore the feeling that i'm running out of chances to start over--i've been told draggi... » Continue Reading
it’s all just how you wanted it, rip currents pulling and pulling. i can feel the eyes of your friends on the back of my neck, hotter than the sun. keep us close enough to shore for them to see the show. drag me under for long enough that they come back for more. standing fucking ovations. i won’t mind if you tell me if it’s better for you or them when the joke is on me, before or after the water’... » Continue Reading