Sometimes I wonder if Vtubing is for me. There was a period where I actually streamed once and it was nice. But now idk, the idea of people perceiving me on an audience level really scares me. I don't want to pretend to not be me but I also I feel uncomfortable with random people knowing me on that kind of level. » Continue Reading
Im often filled with the indescribable urge to run away. Just pack some of my things into a car and start a new life elsewhere. It's nothing I'll ever find myself doing even though I'm an adult and theoretically could. I don't see the idea of starting fresh fun, in fact, it seems like too much trouble. But..I feel like I'm suffocating here sometimes and that it might help me get better. » Continue Reading
Lately, I've been thinking about only doing commission/request work for friends. I just feel better about doing stuff for people I care about, I like to see them happy :3 Plus work makes me so busy and I get very very little free time. I've always wanted to live freelance off art so this feels like a weird little backstep to be debating on. » Continue Reading
Man....I had the week off but I have to go back to work tomorrow. Mentally it's so draining, and spending this week free to draw has only made me realize how much happier I could be If I could make the freelance thing work. Truly at my happiest when I'm making art! » Continue Reading