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im a liar. i lie to myself and i lie to you. nothing i say i feel is real. i dont feel anything. all i have is a pit in my stomach, a knot in my lungs, and waves of hot and cold fingers trailing down my back. this brain is inescapable. im so scared. im always so scared. i cant predict what will happen. i dont know when ill drop it again, and watch it roll away from me. ill watch my body move on it... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
I exist in a world of uncertain, a world in my own hands. I view this land through shades of grey, not one light or black. I have never known "exact"; my words hold no command. the washed-out tones where I call home, be it blurred and bland. I long to hold you closer, but your colors are too bright. You see right through my dull flat eyes, into my shaded light. I exist in a limbo; slate, beige, an... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i see a new face every time i catch a glimpse of my own. sometimes i feel like a narcissist. i think about myself a lot. i take a lot of pictures of myself and select the nicest ones because i want people to think im pretty and to like me. i am so desperate to be liked its disgusting. i let people do whatever they want to me so theyll like me and i have a chance of keeping them. i take what im giv... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
it always seems to come back to you. everytime we fight, everytime we lose each other. with time, it comes back to you. my mind wanders and it falls on you. even when im mad at you, even when i toss you out, i miss you. were coming up on a year since you last reached out. and it was always you reaching out. im sorry for that. im sorry im such a loser. if it makes you feel any better, its not just ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
to: moon do you fantasize about what you never found? well i remember every time you havent been around i caught so many of your tears i could drown in them i could make it up to you, but well never make amends dont think of me when you see my name or hear my favorite song ill never replace you, no one else can fit where you belonged a tear that doesnt fester but filling it would ache id rather le... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i feel that if i spoke forever id tell myself a new story about the same event every time. it would morph and warp and become something entirely new. soon id forget my true feelings, because they were never true. they were only what i thought i knew, what i thought i felt. i dont know if i feel anymore. i dont think i ever did. feelings arent based in fact, they cant be proven. theyre imaginary. p... » Continue Reading
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