smoking a cig on congress and oak i wonder when you picked that habit up you say to me “i miss you terribly” but the last time you texted me was the first week of february do you really miss me or do you miss having someone you can keep at an arms length away someone who will never be that close do you miss me? i’ve missed you terribly but will either of us change? » Continue Reading
i used to ask is this it? will this be someone i could spend my time with will this be someone i could wake up next to every morning just to smile at the sight of their face will this be someone who says i love you without me saying it first will this be someone who meets my parents and best friends will this playlist thats filled with hope with longing be fulfilled be revealed to me now i s... » Continue Reading
carnations next to my bed your hands in my hair tulip bulbs ready for a frost when will i see you next spell jar of dark red petals you are mine and i am yours dried roses hanging from the wall if you’ll let me i’ll be here forever » Continue Reading
dearest love i adore you so and i think of you often i think i will love you until i can’t anymore i’ve said that before to others and i still love them dearly though the way has changed but i hope i get to love you from today to tomorrow until you won’t let me until i can’t » Continue Reading
can i have some time to be anxious can i ask you a question you don’t want to hear can i have you put on a timer so this moment doesn’t last too long can i? i need you to trust me when i say i’ll be okay i need you to remind me that it’s not true, the thoughts i need you to listen and not think any less of me i need you. do you think your family liked me do you say those things just to make me f... » Continue Reading
you like me with my makeup done i only know because you call me pretty the most when i'm wearing it you love the way i look in a dress i only know because of what you said when i got changed in the morning you want me more in cute underwear i only know because of the reaction on your face when im instead wearing boxers i know you see me for me not a woman i don't know whether or not » Continue Reading
spotify always pegs me as exactly who i am you can tell by the way i look who i am the words i use to write and speak are who i am i fit into perfect molds of who i am but still who am i? » Continue Reading
what if i secretly miss the little nooks and crannies i've lived in all on my own and made my own tiny marks in what if i leave and don't come back to this tiny corner that i've built infrastructure for my soul to rest in what if i set my hopes to high for a place that i imagine will see me better than anywhere else and my dreams crumble what if there isn't a » Continue Reading
like a pigeon from the sidewalk patiently waiting for the stoic owl atop the roof to relieve himself of that post though he stands plumb and unwavering bird to bird, neither must bow the pigeon under scrutiny must continue his path while the owl under the guise of enlightened reality sees nothing behind false eyes he who dreams of sun-drenched rooftops must be smothered by he who holds his » Continue Reading