im scared 😋

okay so, 4th year is almost about to end. only like 5/6 months left.

we all have to pick out a college and yea. i think like everyone in my friend group is going to a different college since yea everyone wants to do smt else. 

the only small problem for me is that i am going to move after this year, like an hour away from all my friends so i'll rarely see them.

and i'll miss them ofc but the thing is, i dont think im ready to leave everyone behind. ofc they can come by in the weekend and i'll come to them but still.

and the thing that is bothering me the most is my relationship. i dont think im ready to have a long distance relationship. i wanna be with him yk. 

i feel so shitty about leaving him behind and time already moves fast so idk how fast this will go by.

im scared to leave him, not like scared in like i dont trust him typa way but just idk how our relationship will end up after.

maybe im just overthinking shit again, im sure we'll visit each other every other weekend or so