01/12/2023

Well, I just got back home and maaannn the results of talking to the guy are extremely depressing... I started speaking to him and he just looked so panicked and scared and that made me feel horrible even after the fact he rejected be since he's straight I don't think I can ever go into the store again after that. And I just know that scene will just be replaying in my head for the foreseeable future and its going to be torture. I'm sorry guy for putting you in such a horrible position today 😞.

I don't know if I can ever go out and speak to a random person like that AGAIN so im just going to be depressed for a little while...

I also did some Christmas shopping for my family 3 out of 5 members done and I'll do the other 2 some other time, I hope I can find something they'll like. :<

I also so this girl for the first time I haven't seen in a while i was going to try and speak to her too way back when by gifting her with a lucky bamboo and a little hand written note but I never got to, so yeah I saw her today and I got rejected by that guy. I feel like the universe just wants to torture me even after just desperately asking for help..