#28

First snowfall on writevember 28. Or what im considering the first snowfall. 

It’s the first snow I’ve seen. It looks beautiful from my window. It freezes against my window in pellets and it’s casting a gloomy reflection into my bedroom. The colour of the sky contrasts well against my purple walls. This time last year on the first snow I was cuddled up with my boyfriend. Oh how times have changed. We bundled up, my room was freezing because of no insulation and we lit candles and watched movies. Nowhere to go. I can’t drive my car when there is snow on the ground. I was content with that as it meant an excuse to spend time with no one but ourselves. This winter season things have changed a lot. But I still can’t drive my car. The snow cascades a slip n slide onto the road and my car glides across it. I have plans to see a movie tonight. Im excited to explore this first snowfall on foot. To feel the snowflakes on my face. To feel the wind nip at my nose. To dress in layers and clutch at myself in an attempt to stay warm. There is a profound beauty in the cold. I used to never appreciate it but in the last few years I’ve found adoration in the way it looks when the snow is freshly fallen. Fresh footprints and snow lining bare branches and icicles hanging above. I will ignore the slush and pretend the snow always looks like a soft blanket keeping the sidewalk cozy. I like walking in the dark, through the snow, listening to music. It makes me feel like im in a movie. Life feels like that a lot for me sometimes. I find it makes it easier to cope when I pretend im a character in a film who has bigger things coming. I will drink a beer as I walk through the snow and the cold can against my already-cold fingers will remind me to feel things other than pain, heartache and loss. I will embrace the sensations of the small things my body feels that I so easily look past. It is nice to feel those small things. I will savour them as they come and go and I will remember to appreciate little moments like snowflakes in my hair and eyelashes and my heart beating against my chest. I will remember to cherish the life I get to live and all of the hidden treasures it comes with. I love you first snowfall. Thank you for reminding me of the beauty in the mundane. <3

Mai mai out