writevemeber day 25 already failing at my promise to write everyday again

Mfw i have a great night out with my friends and then get home and spit sob cuz i miss my best friend 😹😹😹 Anyway last night was so much fun me maia skyler allana and gabrielle and madi went to a show in toronto and as usual i spent most of my time in the bathroom and outside smoking cigarettes!!!! Still so much fun though and the train rides were the bestest time. Finally got to feature in the 10 minute long. I fell over and scraped tf out of my knees and everyone took tumblr level aesthetic photos of them. And then i got home and this sadness about sam hit me like a fucking truck and i played the drinking game we made last year alone in the curtain room and i didnt even get 10 minutes in before i started fucking sobbing. It was a type of crying I havent done in so long and it wasnt the type of cry that felt good, it was the type of crying that leaves you short of air. Anyway once i finished the summer vlog i went out to the garage to talk to her and i did and i kept asking her to show me her presence if she was there. It was cold as fuck outside but everytime i asked for her to be present for me, I immediately felt warmth and stillness. It was cool because ive talked to her a lot but never really asked her to make me aware of her presence but she did and the way she showed it was by calming and warming me. It was lovely. That made me stop crying so hard and i talked to her for a bit longer before going inside and finally going to sleep. I overslept my shift by 15 mins today but now im working. and tonight ill be going to SAINT LOUIS KARAOKE 😍😍😍😍 Already got some tracks lined up hope they have them mr karaoke man if ur listening. Just have them