Day 47 of improving myself until I get a girlfriend

6We are back on track! Today was great, I got a lot done, very productive, very relaxing at the same time. Good day all around. 

I wanted to start the day by drawing but my power went out so I needed something else to satisfy myself. After the power went back on, I did draw and guys, I know this might be crazy and it's not like my art teacher or mutuals or fellow design students have been telling me this but I might be a good artist, just maybe. It was a really good spread, I told myself that If I wanted to draw something, I would draw it and if it turned out like shit, I'd learn from it and not erase it. So, I just drew whatever and it turned out alright, it wasn't terrible, like I thought it would be. 

I read a whopping two chapters of that confusing ass book I'm currently reading, I've also decided to finally bite the bullet and read The Republic by Plato because my debate coach wants me to and it's 688 pages long, wish me luck with that one. I'll start reading it tomorrow or tonight, I want to try reading more than one book at a time. Can you tell I've been watching book haul videos because look at how motivated I am to read! I love books!

I sure did exercise today but I sure was not healthy. I only did light exercise though, I usually exercise at 7am but this morning at 7, my mom told me to wait for a package which never arrived and I just amused myself in the living room, waiting for the package. I still don't think it arrived. After I waited, I realized that I didn't have much time to exercise and just pumped out a quick workout. I had 2 meals, breakfast and lunch. Breakfast was fine, lunch was pretty unhealthy. I had instant noodles and it was the worst flavor too but I can't waste food. Me and my sister did everything we could to make it taste good and it actually did taste good in the end. More unhealthy stuff, I had too much caffeine, it's my vice. I made myself a cup of coffee while awaiting the package, I drank it and then when I wanted breakfast, I noticed that there was cinnamon and remembered that I love coffee with cinnamon and I made a second cup but put some cinnamon in it that time around. After I drank that my sister came home from school and had this energy drink with her and I drank half of it. I will never stop, nor do I want to. 

I learnt about literature, I'm sorry. I talk about literature far too much, I'm so sorry but when I'm in any sort of slump, I watch literature stuff. You see, my parents have been on my case about after school studies, I'm going for English and I use those day in the life of an English major vlogs to motivate myself to actually study and also to read and learn more. English is so cool, I love it. That's my learning for the day.

I wrote the big thing, it's not so much a review but it is like a send off to the Let's Fight a Boss Podcast which sounds corny but it's actually a podcast that meant a lot to me and it ended! I asked various other fans what they thought of the podcast and put their responses in the piece so it wasn't just me but like the whole range of fans. It took me a while to write though, two whole hours to write the final product. 

I read Berserk, very good chapter. I watched an episode of Arrested Development, very funny. I read more Fire Punch (46-50) and for my spoiler free thoughts, why does Fujimoto do this to me? Why does he like to make me suffer so? Those chapters were so sad, they stung so hard that I wish that i didn't care about any of the characters and I wish that I hated Fire Punch but no, I love it and I love that I hate that I love it. Also song recommendation, I love this group called Swans, they make interesting music. Listen to their album Songs For The Blind but this isn't about that album, it's about a song off of The Seer. It's a song called Song for a Warrior and I thought nothing of it but I heard that song yesterday and it reminded me of Fire Punch. It's this song which describes a heroic Warrior but there's also this bleak undertone of hopelessness especially if you listen to the full album and the part that gets me is at the end of the song, after describing all the trials and challenges of this Warrior, it ends with the line "then begin again" that's what reminded me most of Fire Punch especially those 5 chapters. I also watched Psycho and I liked it, very fun movie with really good dialogue. I knew the big twist because I know this guy who takes music and he spoiled the whole movie because he had to study it for his music class, it does have a good soundtrack though. I can't say too much without spoiling but Freud would love it! I know that for a fact. I don't know why I didn't say that in my letterboxd review, I wrote something dumb like "imagine Hitchcock meeting a femboy" what was I talking about? What? What does that have to do with anything? Past me ought to be ashamed! Here's the review : 

Im going to watch Spirited Away tonight and maybe the new Frieren tomorrow. I have to see my elf wife again. 

I tried to study hard today and to my credit, I did but then when I was about to finish, my dog chased a mouse underneath my study desk and I was not about to deal with that so I left and I just left all my books there. I got a reasonable amount of work done. Gotta impress the teacher! 

I spoke to my cousin over text so not much but I did make plans during the holidays, concrete plans with these guys I know, friend of a friend type thing or cousin of a friend type thing. I'm working a few things out relationship wise but I need to see these cousins of a friend because I need to extract the truth, I've been told that the one cousin has a crush on me and I need to get to the bottom of it or it will eat me alive so we gotta find out if she does. I say "we" as if I'm the lead in some Truman Show sitcom but tell me to my face that I won't be a great sitcom character! Oh wait you can't! That's called a catch-22. You just caught 22, that seemed a little rude, I'm only kidding. Can you tell I've reading Catch-22. Anyway, I need to prep for that day, it's gonna be after the exams. I spoke to my sister today as well, I speak to her every day but sometimes there's those days where it's like we're bonding yk? I'm so thankful to have a sister who looks up to me. I also spoke to my old friend today, he lives far away so I sent him a text, I don't know if he responded yet, I'll have to check soon. I can't wait. Time to make concrete plans with him too! I did chat that girl on discord again today while i waited for my package, she made it more bearable. You do not want to know how i would've entertained myself if not for her texting me. I'll tell you anyway, I would've played music from my cellphone and then do This. It's how I communicate with my sister these days. It's very fun, try it. 

Thanks for reading this, I'm pretty happy today, you know when everything just falls into place. I'm not happy about the Fire Punch chapters I read but I'm happy that they made me unhappy. Anyway, I'm making concrete plans and my holiday will not be spent doing nothing for days on end and ignoring everyone and secluding myself. I'm gonna do more this holiday! I'm going to meet new people, get a job, hang out with friends, get the old gang back together, it's great, I'm planning something in secret shhhhh... I want to invite my friends to this really good pizza place. I'm inviting my best friend aka the Mario kart guy, I'm inviting my old friend that I never see anymore and I'm inviting my responsible friend. I love them all. I'm also planning on having a move day with my cousin, she's struggling through her law degree, she's always been like an older sister to me, if I'm being honest and we're gonna watch terrible movies. Lastly, my sister's friend wants to plan something with her and a few of our mutual friends, I guess I have to be the chaperone again, oh woe is me! No, I'm actually really excited to see them all again, out of all my sister's friends, this one is the nicest. Obviously, I have other things which I'm going to do which aren't all that interesting (I'm gonna read and finish a video game that I've been holding off for a year now). See you tomorrow!