Day 41 of improving myself until I get a girlfriend

Today wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I only got 4 hours of sleep and was really tired but a cup of coffee fixed me up really well. So I was energized again, today was actually really productive.

I didn't Exercise today, I'll try to do that tomorrow but I did eat healthier, always picking the healthy option, getting double servings of vegetables, that kinda stuff. I skipped dinner though because I ate my dinner for lunch so I'm not really hungry. I actually have a really small appetite but the food was good. 

I learnt about Franz Kafka and his life. I've mostly explored his life through his literature but I accidentally clicked on a video detailing his entire life story and I thought "why not?" He is my favorite author and I've realized that I've only scratched the surface with his works also the dude just had such a tragic life. His dad hated him because he was a writer and not some strong, Patriotic guy. If I had a time machine, I'd give Kafka a big hug because the looming judgement and emotional abuse of his father plagued him for his entire life and he really needed a hug. I love Kafka, he deserved everything good in this world. 

Kafka is a big inspiration to me, I don't experience the same misery but when I read his books, I feel a deep connection to his characters. It's so tragic and I can feel the emotion behind his words. So after I finished watching that video, I immediately wanted to get writing. Writing is my favorite form of expression these days and I'm writing a short story which is actually something that I'm proud of. I think it might be good. It's way to personal for me to publish and is based off of a period of my life that I haven't even told my closest relatives about. So that's a no go but take my word for it, it's good. I hope I'm not being delusional about it or anything but I truly believe it's the best piece of fiction I've ever written. 

It was technically today that I finished Scott Pilgrim Takes Off and it's a 10/10 or a 100/100. It reminds me of Gurren laggan. I was watching that at like 2am. I also watched this movie called All That Jazz and it is a beautiful movie and the most fun way to experience an existential crisis 4/5 from me but I recommend it. 

I am once again on the ball with my studies, I finished what I had to and it took me all day but I did it and now I'm afloat and back on track. From here it should be smooth sailing.

I socialized with my dad today. He's generally reserved but sometimes he just starts talking, like verbal diarrhea and he has the craziest stories, I hope to live a life like his someday. Like, you wouldn't believe the shit he's experienced.

I didn't draw or play guitar today because I'll be honest, it slipped my mind completely. Sooooo... whoops! I'll get back on it tomorrow. It's sall good, man. I'm not gonna lose progress because of one day. I'm surprisingly easy going today, not sure why but it's different from my usual stress. 

I just started this book called Catch 22 and its actually really entertaining. I'm enjoying how strange it is. It's very unconventional in it's dialogue and story structure. Seems good so far. 

Thanks for reading this one. I'm surprised at how good this Sunday was. I was so tired this morning, I got 4 hours of sleep but it wasn't as bad as the last time I pulled an all-nighter. I stayed up and watched like 4 movies in a row that day and I saw the sun rise through the blinds and then I realized that I had stayed up all night. On that day my family went out to eat and I was so tired that I physically could not stomach the food and I was sleeping all day. I felt like the dude from Fight Club. I fell asleep at the restaurant and I woke up in an empty car parked outside our local park and it was a strange day. Don't pull all-nighters, but they're actually really fun. Make sure you don't have anything planned the day after though or it will be a horrid experience. Anyway, see ya tomorrow.