Day 37 of improving myself until I get a girlfriend

Today I completed (almost) all my tasks. I don't know why but I was so motivated today. I blame Tom Nook. 

I got back on my media consumption grind. I read a chapter of Berserk and it was actually a really Wholesome chapter. Like the Guts in that chapter was a serious contrast to the Guts in the rest of the manga. I read 5 more chapters of Fire Punch (16-20) and those chapters were really good, for some reason they made me emotional. Not as in sad, just, I felt things that I can't describe. The ironic thing is, the exact feeling that I'm describing was actually described in the manga. The Apartment is one of my favorite movies and if you asked me with the tiktok mic and you shoved a camera in my face and asked me to describe why I loved The Apartment so much, I wouldn't know what to say, it made me feel things and that's how I felt about those 5 chapters. I then watched One Piece just because it's so much more light hearted than Berserk and Fire Punch, two of the darkest seinen manga and then you have One Piece and it's just nice. I also watched Arrested Development, it was a weak episode, there's like random transphobia in that show and I hate it because everything else is so funny. It's like eating a delicious fish and biting into a sharp bone. I am currently watching The Wolf of Wall Street and I had to stop watching or I'd just watch that whole movie in one sitting. 

I studied as soon as I got home from my exam. I wasted my exam time thinking of stupid Robot Chicken video, like I was so confident and then my mind drifted to that video and it's really funny but I fumbled that last question which is arguably the most crucial part and the worst thing is that I knew the work, I just didn't have the time to write it out. So when I got home, I started studying for paper 2 immediately. I got a lot of work done and I still have some more study work to do after this goes up, just a tiny bit of work though.

I didn't socialize much, mostly just chatted with business boys. I didn't get to chat with my friend because our exam schedules differ and I was really stressed and studied during my break instead of talking.

Today was a guitar day and I learned how to play Linger by the Cranberries and its one of my favorite songs ever but it's so boring to play. If you're a beginner then learn it but I'm more intermediate, atleast I know how to play one of my favorite songs though. I still love that song. The intro part was pretty fun to play though. 

I didn't read a lot today, I just read five pages today but like, the metamorphosis just makes me so sad. I have a constant frown on my face when I read it. It's about a guy who gets turned into a bug and his family essentially ostracizes him and they don't wanna see him anymore out of fear or disgust but his sister still brings him food and she's so sweet and she laid all sorts of food out for him to see which food he likes more as a bug. It's so sad and Wholesome, I love you, Franz Kafka!

I didn't Exercise today because it's hot and I'm lazy but I did eat healthy. No bad food but I did eat some delicious fish and rice and green peppers. I love bell peppers, they are the best vegetable ever. I love them. It was so good and I felt good eating it, no bloating or anything like that. It just feels good to eat something light and healthy and delicious. 

I learnt about deliberate practice today. There's this weird emphasis on time put into any skill that you're trying to learn and it is good to record the time you spend on certain things but also it's good to put emphasis on the quality of that time spent. Like, I took guitar lessons at school for two years and I can say that I've been playing for over two years but I can assure you, the quality does not match the time spent because my teacher was really good, he was great but he just got sidetracked so the quality of learning was worse than the time spent. I mean like try to actually understand the skill you're trying to learn on a deeper level than just performing it. If that makes sense. Like if you're a musician, it helps to learn theory, if you're an illustrator, it helps to learn fundamentals, stuff like that. Also make time to do the stuff you want to do. I used to focus solely on art fundamentals and theory and it was miserable so make sure to do what you like to do as well. 

I finished my review for the week and now I have about a day to focus on my short story before I have to edit my review for publishing. It's pretty good, I think but I could be wrong. I don't like that I had to go into mild spoilers but I had to to get my point across. If you want to read it when it comes out then I'd recommend watching Pulp Fiction and Death Proof beforehand because I spoil those two movies in my review and I wish I didn't but I had to, also look up trigger warnings beforehand, both of those movies are quite violent but I'm mostly speaking about Death Proof. 

Thanks for reading. I forgot that I said that I would talk about Apocalypse Now, I think, I don't actually remember if I said that but i did enjoy that movie. It's 3 hours long but so worth it. It's really dark and abstract at points. It feels like war is used as a vehicle for the broader message. Which is that there is a darkness within all of us that is awakened once we isolate ourselves from society. I don't fully agree with that sentiment, some people just have hearts of gold. It's still a great movie though and I highly recommend it. I want to read the book and watch the documentary that the director's wife made about the production. That's also just really sweet, their like a family of directors, Francis Ford Coppola, Eleanor Coppola and Sofia Coppola. I love them all so much. Anyway, see you in tomorrow's entry.