longing for a pause in time

i hate being alone

i feel like i'm not whole when i'm alone 

alone time and having something to do is ok

but just like the ambience of only me in a room makes life feel so much harder

people bring warmth and light and laughter

being alone is so cold 

i've had to get used to the cold a lot 

cold food cold room cold blood 

and too much warmth can make me melt 

the sweet spot is amazing though 

comforting 

i've got so much love to give kills me to keep it in 

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