Day 34 of improving myself until I get a girlfriend

Today, I started really late so I didn't get much done unfortunately but there's always tomorrow. We cap on. 

I read 3 more chapters of Pride and Prejudice, that's pretty good for today, I think. I usually only have it in me to read two bur I started with reading today so I just read an extra one, why not? 

I didn't Exercise today, I get embarrassed to workout at home. I ate alright, I had stew for lunch, I had Mac and cheese for breakfast and I had a few snacks in between. I'm also gonna eat dinner right after this blog is posted. I think I need to eat healthier because I'm getting really bloated. Not just because of the bloating but it always makes me stomach ache.

I learnt about small talk and how to enjoy it. I learnt some pretty useful stuff about it. The goal is to be interested and not interesting, too often do I try to be interesting to the other person but if I look back on the times when I flourished socially, I was focusing intently on the other person. The closest that I've ever gotten to getting a girlfriend was back 2 years ago and I only hit it off with her because of how I hung on every word she said. So keep that in mind when making small talk I guess, unless you're talking to me because it would be awkward if I'm having a conversation and trying to be interested but the other person is also being interested and then we're both interested in nothing.

I always take breaks from writing over the weekend but I usually start a short story or something but today, nothing. I did meet someone else who was also a writer today and she showed me an extract from her short story and I did write the title to my new review. I'm giving away trade secrets here but before I write my reviews, I have a list of points which I will elaborate on and that is my structure. When I was about to write this review, I forgot all my points. I should write this stuff down. 

This is gonna be shocking but I didn't consume ant media today. No manga, no anime, no movies, except books but that doesn't count here. Nothing. I've just been thinking of Frieren honestly, great show and I want more. She's my little elf wife, yk? I need to see more of her and Her merry band of fools. Maybe I'll shave off an hour some movie before I go to bed.

For reference - my elf wife :

I finished my art project today, it's weird. Usually there is this triumph after finishing a project but it doesn't feel like it's over. Maybe when I hand it in, that air of relief will wash over me. That's poor writing by the way, I'm comparing my relief to the air and then saying it will wash over me, as if it's water, I'm supposed to be good at this stuff. That aside, I'm just glad it's finally done, that's a lot of time that I won't get back. 

I didn't socialize today, I started chatting to this other writer on discord but I'm not sure if that counts, I can type pretty well but the problems come in when I speak to people so it doesn't count in my book.

I did manage to draw for my own enjoyment. I did my project but that wasn't for my enjoyment, so it doesn't count. After my usual Sunday bath (it was 50 minutes long today, what was I doing in there), I drew in my tiny sketchbook. I do a spread every time I draw in it because it's so small, so why not? Im going to try learning the art fundamentals too, there's this site called a drawabox and Im doing the exercises on there to improve in my fundamentals. I'll do an art dump next week maybe, I think it would be cool to just go over all my art in one post and explain everything.

Thank you for reading, I really appreciate it. I love it when I get comments, I love waking up to see kudos, I love the idea that people read this. This is one of the biggest impacts that my writing has ever had and I appreciate every single person who reads this. Just yesterday, someone subscribed to my review blog and I was so happy, I got an email like, this dude now reads your blogs on substack and I was jumping up and down. No matter how far my writing goes, I don't ever want to forget anyone who's ever read my writing in any form, whether it be you reading this, that guy reading my reviews, my English teacher reading my essays, my science teacher reading my letter to her, my friend who proofreads My reviews and even said that my review of pikmin 4 was the best thing he's ever read. Thank you, i always mean it but this time I wanted to emphasize that. I'll see you tomorrow, reading this over, it sounds kind of final and I was just feeling corny, don't worry I will be back tomorrow.