what the fuck

i just get confused more and more everyday it is so hard to read people yet it remains so simple because it is so easy to tell what they want from me-- i will not let myself be bothered tho i am trying so  hard to distract myself from thinking of my current situation because ifi  think about it too much i will start tweaking LOL and not in a good way i love social media tho LOL it makes me feel validated and i see people going through the same thing and even worse -- i really dont understand and truly do not want to understand why people do things like this to each other on purpose -- nature vs nuture idk but ultimately you choose what and why you do things even if it is at the expense of another i just really dont understand why cant you be direct i hate you