Day 32 of improving myself until I get a girlfriend

Today was one of those mellow days you know. I didn't have any exams that I was preparing for and I didn't really know what to do with my time. I mostly watched twitch streams.

I didn't really socialize much except from behind a screen. I don't exactly think this counts but I was watching the super eyepatch wolf stream today and given that his podcast ended, I asked him through twitch chat if I could write something on the podcast and he approved it so that's worth mentioning. 

New category, drawing/guitar! I need to get back into these hobbies, I can't let others ruin it for me. I'll alternate between the two of them. I was gonna play guitar but then I decided to draw a spread in my tiny sketchbook. I would post it but I don't know how to. I'll figure it out because a lot of you (one of you) are interested in seeing some of my drawings and I'm always talking about straight A average (B at best average) in my design classes so I want to show off some spreads. My drawings were pretty shit today, though but I do aim to give my readers the unabridged and unfiltered improvement experience so when I do share my art, you will see the good the bad and the ugly.

I read two chapters of Pride and Prejudice and not gonna lie, that book is kinda like sludge at times, I love it though. Crime and Punishment is one of my favorites and that book is sludge.  Sometimes, I just can't with the way in which they speak but I do love it. I'm not sure how to articulate this feeling, I love it when a book is so rich that it feels tedious to read.

I did an arm workout today. It was pretty intense, I just pumped iron (I don't own weights so I used my school bag) all morning (I worked for like a half an hour and then I just couldn't anymore). Anyway my upper body and arms are really weak, people love twinks but it ain't easy having this build sometimes. 

I learnt about one of the most evil industries, the fast food industry. I just find it interesting. The video that I was watching on it seemed a bit off with the knowledge and then I found out that the person was spewing complete pseudoscience. First of all people do get addicted to fast food but she was acting as if it's a drug and if you eat fast food, you'll die immediately. I do think that fast food is evil because most of it comes from unethical business practices but it won't kill you to eat one burger. Just the way she exaggerated the information made me so angry, some of it was true but she just lied for everything else. Anyway my advice is everything in moderation, if you eat junk food every so and so then that's good.

I wrote a review for this anime that I watched and I'm really proud of it. It's up on my substack, I'll link it at the bottom. I refer to myself as male a few times in that if you read it because it's also on my tumblr, that is because some people I know Irl might see it so don't be alarmed, I'm just saving my hide. I'll link it at the bottom, you don't need to sign in with your email, the website just makes you think you have to but you don't have to.

Big one here. I read some Berserk and it was a really good chapter, I read 5 chapters of Fire Punch and it's really growing on me, there's too much SA though but like I understand it's not coming from a place of like malice or whatever, I trust Fujimoto. I watched One Piece too, that show is really good actually even though I'm embarrassed to watch it. I watched Arrested development and tried to get my sister to watch it too but she thinks it's a boring premise even though the execution is amazing. I watched Frieren and I love it, I don't know how else to say it. I love all the characters especially Stark my beloved and Frieren my beloved but to a much greater extent than Stark. Lastly I'm trying to finish this up because I wanna watch a movie called the Italian Job.

I didn't study today

Anyway thank you for reading,  Here's my review , give it a read. You know, I've been thinking about food, I'm actually really unhealthy. Like, I need to get my shit together. I'm thin and skinny so I don't look like an unhealthy eater but sometimes I just don't eat and other times, I just eat like doritos. Feels bad that you have people out there who are fat for no other reason than genetics and try to lose weight and then you have me who is so unhealthy yet is so skinny. Unforts but it is what it is. I really gotta gain weight though.