Day 31 of improving myself until I get a girlfriend

Today was alright, nothing special but it wasn't bad or anything. I found out that my favorite podcast has ended and im not sure how to feel about that. Whatever though, we cap on.

I studied for business studies because I have nothing else to study but I also did half of my art project. I hate this project, it's so ass. My teacher wants me to design a character which is cool and then draw that character over and over again which is not cool. She always designs the projects like this, where we all have to do multiple drawings. She had me draw 12 high quality posters for my first art project. It is intense.

No socialising today. I wrote an exam and there's no talking in that so...

I read 4 chapters of Pride and Prejudice. Its actually a really deep book. Duh, why else would everyone praise Jane Austen but still, it's ahead of it's time with how it deals with femininity. 

I only did some light exercise today but I will do something more demanding tomorrow though. I got super tired so I didn't really want to do a full workout, I got lazy essentially. 

Today's diet was kinda good. I had a delicious breakfast, a light lunch and a hearty dinner. The way my mom makes chicken strips is just chef's kiss because she was a trained chef at some point, family lore be wild sometimes.

I learnt about creativity. I initially clicked on a random motivational video to get me through my art project and then I realized that the dude was speaking some truth actually. He spoke about keeping your creative life and normal life separate and the fact that you don't need to become a completely different person but actually just channel your energy in you desired direction. Like I have all this passion which I used to put into Fleeting, meaningless hobbies but now I put into my writing so it worked out. That's the advice.

I know I just spoke about how passionate about writing I was but I did not write today. I wrote an entire short story yesterday so I'm giving myself a break.

I did all my hygiene today, I even shaved as well and I'm not even going anywhere tomorrow so it was pointless but whatever, I love hygiene.

Today, I watched more One Piece and that show is like a screwball comedy. I read some Berserk and it's starting to get really deep with morality and stuff. I read some Fire Punch because I was itching for some Fujimoto action but is that guy OK, how do you write something like that, what must your mental state be like to create Fire Punch? It's still good, ISCARIOT on this site recommended it to me. I also watched more Arrested Development and it was really funny, I love that show. How many times can I call Arrested development funny? I watched another episode of Frieren and I'm almost caught up.

Thanks for reading this one. I've been wanting to get back into drawing and music. I'm taking design as a subject and I get good marks consistently for that subject without ever practicing. Im good at drawing but eventually my age will exceed my talent and my drawing skills will decline. However, I hate design as a subject so much that I've come to hate the act of drawing and my teacher loves me, she knows I'm good at drawing but she wants me to put actual effort in but I hate drawing so much. This reminds me of when I took guitar and my guitar teacher made me hate playing guitar but he claimed that I was one of his best students. That's the weird thing, being good at something you hate. I want to enjoy drawing and guitar again, I want to love these hobbies of mine and improve. But design as a subject has whittled me down into someone passionless for something I used to love and my guitar teacher was literally a Psycho, if you've ever seen Whiplash that's how he acts. I'm going to try to draw and play music again for myself and my own enjoyment and not let myself hate these hobbies that I used to adore and be so passionate about. That was kinda miserable, sorry, design just makes me miserable and I'm stuck with that subject.