Horrible Night

11/7/23

11:55PM

THIS NIGHT HAS BEEN THE WORST. IVE BEEN THINKING OF HER. SHE POSTED PICS AND I HATE MYSELF AND HER FOR DOING ME SO WRONG. I CUT MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME. IVE SCRATCHED MY WHOLE BODY SO HARD IN AN ATTEMPT TO JUST FEEL PHYSICAL PAIN TO DISTRACT FROM MY BRAIN. I PRAYED TO GOD NOT TO WAKE UP TM (MEANING DEATH). I HATE LIFE. I HATE WHAT I LOST. MY PRECIOUS FRIEND. WHYD SHE LIE TO ME SO MUCH AND MAKE A FOOL OF ME? WHY? WHY ME? DID SHE MEAN ALL THE NICE THINGS? DOES SHE THINK IM UGLY NOW? REGARDLESS ILL NEVER HAVE THE OLD HER BACK AND IT KILLS ME TO ACCEPT IT. I WANT HER TO FEEL MY PAIN