obligatory update

653 as i write this dienstag only because i set my phone to german

things went down since i last updated this thing. 

first of all, possibly the most important one: i broke up with my girlfriend, all after deep talks with some friends and meeting this guy at one of my university’s libraries—nothing happened with the guy, it was more like an excuse to realize i needed to let go.

aside from that, i went to a couple of parties, got extremely drunk and, on my last one, got confronted by a girl i ghosted. it was horrible and pathetic, and i was so wasted i could barely mumble anything outside of an apology. good for her, though, i hope she got whatever closure she needed, because after she made out this whole scenario i went home and found the ig handle of a guy i saw at the party and thought was hot.

anyway, i’m texting the guy. we were in the same high school generation and will probably hang out either this week or the next, i still am not sure if he knows i’m flirting with him, so we’ll see about that.

i think my main problem derives on the fact that i’ve dated too many women, i’ve not experienced the hell that is men—i’m bored, and i want to suffer more. this guy seems sweet, maybe too naive, but we’re young so it doesn’t mater.

college wise i’m doing good, am only worried on one subject but i think i’ll manage. surprisingly, i always do. i have this insane luck that has been going constant since high school, so i don’t worry too much right now. 

i think i feel better, or maybe i feel so much worse i’ve been starting to get better.