laugh out loud

realizing just how uncool i am

even the artsy loners and star students go out with friends

and i just realized that i dont have anyone that hangs out with me as more than the occasional safety precaution

i need to drop a course

ill probably lose my scholarship 

i dont know why i even get up in the morning

its not like i actually enjoy any of this

im realzing i was never in love 

im realizing i was never loved

maybe ill agree to meeting up with strangers until i meet someone that can end things for me

but no one ever takes enough interest in me to even try

im just dead air