manifesto

fuck it imma write a manifesto i keep teetering btwn the most calm/chill/cool/down-to-earth/opium feelings to the most violent/gut-wrenching/nauseating feelings its insane i wish i was the person i was in high school life was so much simpler i only existed within the confines of school and my family and my past endeavors but  THE POINTIS THAT WAS ALL now everything has to be convoluted by some dumb shit. everything i do has to have a purpose or some underlying meaning otherwise it is not taken for what it is -- i do not do things for the sake of doing them aside from some minor things in my life i always gotta read into shit i want people to be direct with me i want it written in a letter and in an scholarly manner (ok jk maybe) plus my terminal is not letting me log in remotely into my server and it is really pssing me off and i have to drive back home tonight and sit with my thoughts maybe idk i will put some good ass music so i can for a moment live within the lyrics and their meanings or lack thereof -- it is so nice to see that someone felt strongly enough about something they manifested it into a piece that will ultimately withstand time -- i want to feel everything you feel