2/11/23 ...i guess a new start?

these days i have been feeling more upbeat with my life, i feel more confident with my own body and i feel atleast a bit more happier now

i wonder what it was, maybe because i started going to the gim with my brother, or just because i finally left away one of my toxic friends?, i dont know, but im enjoying it for sure

i have new ideas, like making a plushie of one of my OCs, i dont know, one that is the height from my foot to my hip, but i dont know how expensive the cloth is... still, i hope i can get enough money until then

i do wonder though, i still remember the day i got concious, like.. some rectangles were spining around and showing like.. cartoons in them, it was like 3 seconds, then suddenly i woke up in my bed. something that worries me is that... was there something before?, did all that happen then i just woke up?, was i stuck in darkness moments before? what happened? am i even exisiting? what is wrong with me?. all of these questions will and follow me until my death i guess