Day 24 of improving myself until I get a girlfriend

Today was really shit but we cap on I guess. That's life and what matters is how you take it. 

Let's start by talking about my studies. I've been going over physics because that's my first exam and I hope that I finish the work on time. I just wanna get a good grade for this subject but that's unlikely, however, I am making steady progress in my physics work.

I could've accomplished more but I was got a phonecall from my cousin and it lasted 40 minutes. I really look up to her and I respect and all but she's a big yapper and she's always going through something. She really needs a vacation, I'm very frugal with my money but I'd spend all of it if it meant she could go on vacation. I also had a big chat with mom because I got detention, I'm a good kid (in a maad city) so I don't get detention a lot, it's just something we can laugh at because I've gotten it One other time in 4 years. 

I read more After Dark and I'm not sure if I like where the book is headed exactly because it's not what i signed up for when I decided to read it but alas, it still gives me exactly what I want from it at the exact same time.

I had another exercise session today and I hate it but I also love it. I was so exhausted afterwards but hey, I'm making progress and that's what matters.

I skipped lunch again, unfortunately but I did have breakfast and dinner though so that's good. I'll be honest, sometimes I just can't eat lunch, maybe it's my body clock but sometimes food just makes me sick, not in the allergy way but in when you force yourself to eat way, I don't have an ED or anything, it's just my body clock yk? I can't throw it out of balance.

I learnt about loneliness and being alone, more on that at the end. I learnt this from an ASMR video btw. I don't listen to ASMR too much but I find these informative ASMR videos very entertaining because it's essentially just people whispering these really cool pieces of information while like blowing on the microphone.

I did my hygiene of course 

I didn't get to watch anything much, just Arrested Development, still a really funny show. I also listened to a CAN album and I don't really like that group too much, they're too out there.

Thank you for reading this but before I head out, I wanna share some of the things I learned today. About being alone. We all know this whole thing is about me waiting to get a gf or whatever, that's become more of a secondary reason but I've learned that we spend a lot of out time alone and while it may be difficult, we need to learn to enjoy our own company and if we enjoy ourselves, others will too. I'm still working on that myself but like, we spend our whole lives in this body and that irks me. I hated it but I've grown to tolerate it and I want to love it. We can all do things to make inhabiting our bodies more comfortable and if you can, do that because living in this body horrifies me at times but I do small things, like take care of myself or on a more mental note, I read books because that helps me cope for some reason and I adopt traits of people I admire. All small things to make living more comfortable and you should try do make your body more comfortable for yourself too. Anyway, I'm going to bed gn.